What Have I Become?| DabiHawks Fanfic

Touya Part 1

Hawks' POV

Dabi was still sleeping when I woke up again. I decided to leave and pick up some food for us. I got some sushi and brought it back for us. Thankfully, when I got back inside, Dabi was still sleeping.

I sat next to him and put the bag in my lap. I shook him awake. Dabi groaned as he turned and opened his eyes. His blue eyes met mine right before he looked at the bag. "What's that?"

I took the food out of the bag. "Food."

Dabi sat up and grabbed one of the boxes and a pair of chopsticks. I grabbed my own and dropped the bag on the floor. Dabi put some sushi in his mouth. As I broke my chopsticks apart, I decided to make some conversation. "So, how did the meeting yesterday go?"

Dabi swallowed the sushi before answering me. "It was good, I guess. We might team up in the near future. It just depends on the situation. The meeting was basically so we would have an ally."

I nodded as I grabbed a piece of sushi. "That's good."

Dabi moved his half-eaten tray of sushi and put it on the floor next to him. I looked at him, confused. Dabi wiped his mouth with his arm. "I'm not that hungry."

I put my own sushi down on my side of the bed. As I did, Dabi pushed me down onto the bed and kissed me. He got on top of me as he did. I put my hand on the back of his neck. But as he was kissing me, I could tell that there was something bothering him. It wasn't a kiss that was full of lust or want. It was like he was trying to distract himself from something.

I pushed him away from me so I could look at him. He held himself up as he looked down at me. "What?"

He looked frustrated. There was something bothering him a lot. He wasn't like this last night. "What's wrong?"

He pushed himself all the way off of me. He sat next to me and stared at the wall. But he didn't say anything. He just sat there.

I put my hand on his shoulder. "Dabi..."

He looked at me, his face was now full of sorrow and pain. He looked back at the wall and took a deep breath before finally saying something. "I had a dream about my family." He didn't say anything else.

I looked down at our feet. I don't think he needed to say anything else. I understood. I always tried to forget everything about my family, but the moment I remember, it brings back so many mixed emotions. I looked at Dabi. "Are you okay?"

He shrugged. "I would tell you that I'm fine but it would be a lie. I don't know what to feel about them." He looked up at the ceiling. "Before you came here, I had a plan. I was going to kill my brother in front of my dad for everyone to see. It would be the perfect revenge. Him seeing his perfect creation be destroyed by his failed experiment. I was planning on getting killed in the process. I would burn myself to ash."

He stopped and looked at me. "But after you got here... I feel like..." He paused and examined my face. I noticed something under his eyes, right under the patch of burnt skin. It looked like... blood? "I feel like I don't want to. Like I would regret it a lot more than I thought."

I didn't say anything. Dabi looked forward again. This time, when he looked away, I saw blood running down his face. I leaned toward him and wiped it with my finger. "Dabi! Are you okay?"

He turned his head away and wiped the blood. "I'm fine. My tear ducts were burnt a long time ago. I can't cry."

I slowly put my arm down. Dabi didn't look back at me. But I crawled toward him and hugged his side, wrapping my wings around him as well. I partially expected him to push me away. But he didn't. Instead, he wrapped his arms around my own. We stayed like that for a while. I just wanted to comfort him. He may be a villain, and I may be a hero meant to kill him, but I can still save him right now.

Dabi finally pulled away from me. He looked at me and then kissed me again. This time, though, the kiss wasn't full of sadness, or even lust. But it was full of passion. It was a feeling that scared me to death. Dabi cupped my face and tilted his head more. I put my hand on his shoulder, and my other hand on the back of his head. My heart was beating so hard and fast that I thought that maybe Dabi could tell. Maybe he knew what I was feeling.

Dabi pulled back and looked me in the eyes. His eyes were full of so much emotion. I couldn't help but compare the look to how I saw him during fights. It was so different. It was like he was a whole different person. I listened to what he said next. And I couldn't believe what I was hearing. "I want to tell you who I am."