What Have I Become?| DabiHawks Fanfic

Closer To The End

Hawks' POV

"So, how's the mission going so far? It's taking an aweful lot of time." My boss sat in the seat in front of me, behind his desk. I had finally had time to meet with him after a while. I had been busy for so long before.

I kept my head low, staring at my hands. I was ashamed of being a traitor to the LOV. I hated that I'm betraying Shigaraki, Toga, Spinner, Twice, Mr. Compress... Dabi. But it has to be done.

"It's good. I think I'm ready to go through with it very soon. I've earned their trust." I finally looked up at him. He was smiling and holding his hands together on the desk.

I leaned back more in his chair and moved his hands to grip the arms. "Have you learned anything about them that will be useful to know at the moment?"

I thought about it. Other than their pasts, not really. I was about to tell him about Dabi's identity, but then I remembered something from a long time ago.

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"Tell me, Hawks, did anything important happen before your fight? Anything that's reason for you to have done this?" He sat next to me while I spoke to the headmaster. He was trying to prove that I should be allowed to stay.

I thought for a moment before telling him. "They were saying awful things about you. They were calling you a pedophile and said that you're creepy."

The headmaster leaned forward to look at me better. "Were you distressed at all earlier in the day?"

I tried to remember. "There was, a few hours ago, training that really frustrated me. But I felt better afterward."

The headmaster nodded. He stood up and looked at Father. "Can I talk to you in private, please?"

Father nodded and told me to wait outside of the room. I did, and I sat on the bench, just on the ther side of the door. After a few minutes, the door opened and Father walked out. He turned to me and said something. "Hawks. Why did you tell him that?"

I looked up at him, now afraid that I angered him. "What do you mean?"

He crouched down in front of me and put his hand on my shoulder. He looked at my with sympathy. "Hawks, let me tell you something." He sighed before he continued. "Any time that you are talking to someone after you did something wrong, don't tell them anything that could make you out to be the bad guy. What you said back there, he now thinks that you might attack someone later on. He thinks that you let your emotions get the best of you."

I sat up straight and leaned toward him. "But that's not true! I rarely ever get mad!"

He smiled and let go of my shoulder. He looked down. "I know that, Hawks. I know."

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As I sat in front of my boss, formerly known as Father, I knew not to mention anything about Touya telling me who he is. Then he would ask the whole situation. And if I tell him that, then he'll know that I was getting too close with them. He'll know that I'm doubting this whole thing. The boss was always good at reading me.

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Later that day, I had finally gotten home. I laid in bed and tried to take a nap. I wanted to distract myself from what I was going to do. I had a plan. But I didn't want to go through with it. I had to, though. No matter what. And before I knew it, I had finally fallen asleep.

I walked out of Dabi's bathroom. The sunlight peaked throught the window behind his bed and lit up the rest of the room. Dabi was laying on the bed, sleeping. His chest rose and fell so slightly. He looked so graceful.

I walked up to the bed and stopped next to it, careful not to wake him up. I stood there, watching him for a few seconds. And then I grabbed one of my big feathers, using it as a sword. I held it over his throat. I watched him, wondering if he was going to wake up. I pressed the feather against his neck, drawing blood. And the I slit it, causing blood to leave his neck at an alarming rate.

I pulled my arm away and stared at him as blood poured from his neck. And then his eyes opened. He had a straight face and stared into my eyes. It reminded me of how horrible of a person I am. I deserved to die. I deserved to be killed by the LOV. But it's too late to go back now. As I stared into the eyes of my enemy, lover, and former friend, I saw the life fade from his body. He's gone. And soon, I will be too.

I opened my eyes, freaked out by the dream that I had just had. But I wasn't surprised. It's going to happen. I just have to get used to it. Especially because I'm finishing the job tomorrow. The LOV will be dead... tomorrow.