come back to me

gone again

Smut, and long chapter 

Carinas pov 

I lay my head back down on the bed, letting out silent sobs. She lied. She cheated on me, and then lord to me about it. I start to choke on my sobs, deciding to sit up to catch my breath. "I got you some tea.. carina what's wrong?" She says running to my side of the bed. 

"Get. Away. From. Me." I say between struggled breaths, throwing her phone at her with whatever strength I had left. I watch as it hits the floor, screen up, showing the notification. She stares at it for a second before looking back at me. 

"Carina, I thought you knew.. I wasn't trying to hide that I..." she says, I claw at my neck, struggling to breathe. "Do you think I'd be reacting like this if I knew?" I ask, trying to breathe deeper. 

"Carina.." she starts, as she walks towards me. "Sleep on the couch, or in the guest room, whatever. Just get away from me. We can talk about this tomorrow." I say,  walking to the bathroom and locking myself in. 

I hear her footsteps get quieter, as she heads downstairs. I take my phone out and call Jo, she's the only one who truly understands because she's the only one I told the whole story to. "Carina are you okay?" She says, answering with a panic.

After our call, I lay back in bed with my head relatively cleared, and my breathing back to normal. 

The next morning I wake up early to my alarm, Bailey needs me in today, even though it's my off day. I get dressed and open the bedroom door, almost knocking over the display in front of me. It's a tray, with breakfast, coffee, my vitamins, flowers, and a note. 

"Carina, 

I love you. I know that's hard to believe, knowing what I did. I truly thought you knew. I promised to you that I wouldn't lie again, and to me, I wasn't lying. I don't know what to do or what to say. I'm not even thinking while writing this, I'm just spewing everything I'm thinking. 

All I know is that I can't lose you. I know how it feels now, and I never want to do it again. If you're open to talk after your shift, I'll be at the station. Please, Carina. Let me fix this. Please.

Maya" 

I finish eating, the vitamins and the coffee as well. I put the note in my pocket, and wake up the Bambina. We head to the hospital, I drop her off at daycare and head to my office. I set my stuff down, and head to find Jo.

Mayas pov 

I get to the station early, I like to be the first there. The first person to show is Vic, followed by Theo, Andy and Travis. Ben shows next, and we're waiting on jack. Of course. He finally shows, and I get them lined up. 

"Gibson. You were late, and your uniform is unacceptable. Tuck your shirt, fix your collar." I bark at him. Everyone else straightens up too. "This station is a mess, we're cleaning today. Herrera and Warren, you're on engines. Hughes and I, hoses. Montgomery and Ruiz, sweeping and mopping, Gibson, bathrooms." I continue barking. 

Everyone glares at jack, they know he did something. They split off, and jack comes up to me. "Maya, don't you think you're being a little hard on me? I mean.." I cut him off, "it's Captain Bishop, and no. You've been slacking recently, on shifts and at scenes. That shit doesn't pass over well with me. Now go before I lose it." I yell, walking over to help Vic. 

"Can I ask what happened?" She says, "he texted me last night asking if Carina only knew about the once, and she saw it before I did. I slept on the couch last night, she had to take her emergency meds." I whisper back, scrubbing the ends of the hose. 

"You didn't tell her?" She asks, stopping her movements. "I thought she knew." I reply. "How many times?" She asks, going back to her work. "Three." I reply, sighing. 

The rest of the day is slow, after cleaning I sit in my office and do paperwork and wait for Carina. 

Carinas pov 

Ever since last night, I've been craving her body. I'm mad, I'm livid, but all I want is her. My shift goes by quickly, thankfully. I'm moving from case to case without a second to think. Jo forces a protein shake in me in my five minutes of freedom. 

I change out of my scrubs and back into my clothes, before getting into my car. My drive to the station is quiet, just the sounds of the cars on the road and the rain hitting my windshield. 

I walk in, saying hi to everyone except jack before heading upstairs to her office. I barge in, slamming the door behind me and locking it. "Carina" she says, watching. I put my purse on the desk and sit on her lap on her chair, kissing her deeply. She pulls away, "Carina we need to talk.." she says, but I cut her off again with a  hungry kiss. 

She pulls away again, "this isn't healthy" she says, slightly dipping her head back as I kiss down her neck. "Shut up" I say in between kisses. She reaches her hands around me to grab my ass but I slap them away. "Behave." I say into her ear. "Hands behind your back, keep your mouth shut." I say, to which she complies. 

"Carina we need to.." she starts but i cut her off, "do I need to gag you?" I say, bringing one hand up to her throat. "No. Please." She says bucking her hips toward mine. I rip off her shirt and kiss down her chest, licking her through her bra. She lets out a low moan, arching her back towards me. I unclip her bra with one hand, and suck her bud. "God" she moans, "what did I say?" I say, squeezing her throat. She moans again. 

I take off her belt and pull down her pants, they pool around her ankles. I move my head down her body, now on my knees in front of her. I lick her slit over her lace thong, her breathing getting heavier. I pull  her underwear down, and lick her slit again, this time dipping my tongue in. I tease her for what feels like hours, slowly licking and sucking. 

Her moans get louder with each movement, I kiss up her body again, sucking each bud before putting my lips uo to her ear. "What do you want?" I whisper, she moans in response. I wrap a hand around her throat and apply pressure, "speak." I say, pulling her mouth towards my ear. "Please, fuck me." She says, I release her throat and trail my tongue down her body, reaching her clit. I suck hard, and release it with a pop.

"Please." She says with a breathy moan. I enter her with my tongue, my hand reaching up to tease her nipples, her body jerks as she comes, she tries to pull my head away after, but I don't stop. She starts moaning again, I move my mouth up to her clit, sucking and swirling my tongue around it. "Carina I'm gonna..." she says, before she comes again, squirting all over my face and neck, I kiss up her body, and start sucking her nipples again. 

She takes a hand and wraps it in my hair, trying to pull me away but I don't stop. I can tell she's gonna come again, just from nipple stim. I switch breasts, and she comes again, squirting all over my shirt. I stand up, taking my clothes off, and straddle her again, our clits touching. 

"Carina I can't come again." She says, her head dipped back and her breaths shallow. "You can and you will." I reply, starting to rock my hips against hers. I can feel her throbbing against me, her moans loud. "Wait for me." I say, speeding up. I start to moan, feeling a pit form in my stomach. 

"Come." I say in her ear, she squirts again, "does he make you come like this?" I say while she's orgasming. "No, only you." She replies. I stand up, and pull her out of her chair and onto her knees, I take her by her hair, and push her face into my pussy. "Suck" I say, and she does. She makes me come for the second time fast. 

I help her back into her chair, and get a wet paper towel to clean her up. "You were such a good girl." I say, as she's catching her breath. I wipe my face and my neck, before getting her clothes from the floor. I redress her, and fix her hair before redressing myself.