when the stars finally aline

Part 17

Hi guys! Welcome to the next chapter. This one is another heavy chapter, this chapter heavily references self-harm and suicidal  thought due to the black household and dysphoria. I really hope I am doing okay with this in terms of the feelings of dysphoria which is to mention this chapter contains transphobia so if you are unhappy reading I suggest you do not and I will see you in the next chapter. 

As always the summary will be at the bottom alongside translations if you would rather. 

Stay safe and much love x 

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Evan and Regulus always knew that there was going to become a day that they would be forced to take the mark, this was made more evident once Sirius started to act up and refuse to keep the title of Black heir. What was worse was that the Rosiers were cousins so of course before everything they were meant to get married create an heir and live happily ever after under the service of the Dark Lord. Of course, this never happened because Sirius did not marry Cissa or Andy. After all, well Sirius is Sirius and is known as a rebellious person who refuses to marry his cousin and create another incest kid. This helped Regulus in so many ways because the poor child at this stage in life was having serious dysphoria in his body given that he would have been refused hormones to become a boy. After all, that was just not accepted in society especially when you are in the house of Black. 

The day he become the Heir though everything changed, His engagement to Evan was called off very quickly much to his relief because as much as he loved his best friend he was not stupid and he saw the way Evan loved Barty and he could not sit across from Barty and get daggers into his head another night. The whole engagement to Evan was just a distraction to take the heat of the rebellion that was his brother and it did not matter that he was only 14 he was already engaged and expected to be wed the minute it was possible. This obviously did not happen and luckily Barty forgave Reg very quickly upon discovering it was not a choice in the slightest. 

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"I need your help. You need to help Sirius now!" Remus screamed running into the room  with  a panicked tone 

"For Godric's sake Remus how many times do I have to say this before my brother gets it into his thick head? He is nothing but dead to me" Regulus spat in the direction of Remus 

"GORDIC!, YOU TRAITOR!" Barty shouted before entering the room 

"Not the time Barts, What's wrong with Pads, Moons?" James asked voice filled with concerned 

"He hasn't relapsed has he?" James added on quickly 

"Relapsed what the hell do you mean relapsed?" Regulus questioned looking directly at his boyfriend 

"Not the time love, Also probably not my place to say darling sorry" James replies back 

"But why wouldn't you say anything? Come to me I. If he.." Regulus responds 

Regulus' mind was completely spiraling. He knew life at home was cruel and he knew it had such an awful effect on one's mental health, for Slytherin's sake he was covered in scars from his attempts at causing himself harm, some deeper than others, and every time Sirius was there for him. Holding him, reassuring  him, ,that everything is fine and that he was going to protect him, at the time he always said her though, and as much as it was meant to be reassuring it just wanted to make him cut deeper because he hated his body and those pronouns was a constant reminder that she could never be a boy, that she could never be what Sirius was, maybe that is where his hate started. He loved Sirius she knew that but she would never get to live as he did and he absolutely loathed that.