☆ All the Stars ☆ (rarl)

Vol. 4 | I Don't Like Girls

A group of saviors sat around a table drinking and talking. Ron didn't know what they were talking about though, because he was listening to eat the rich by Motörhead at full volume.
He picked up the bottle in front of him to pour another drink.
Negan took the bottle from his hand and said something Ron couldn't hear.
"Huh?" Ron said, talking his headphones of.
"I said that's enough. You've had more to drink then all of us put together." Negan repeated himself.
"What? Do you think you're my dad or some shit?" Ron said, angry with Negans concern.
"I'm the closest fucking thing you've got." Negan replied. He was used to Ron's attitude. He assumed he acted like that to keep people away. Although Negan didn't know were Ron came from or who had stabbed him before he had found him, he knew it had been very traumatic for him.
Ron just looked down.

"Well anyway, my point is that all those people in Alexandria are weak. Especially those ones that have lived there since the beginning." Simon said, angering Ron.

"It doesn't matter. That's what we're for. To protect the weak." Negan stated with a smile.

"Yeah those people probably don't even know what a walker is." Justin said with a laugh.

"Aren't you literally from the fucking hilltop?" Ron said, feeling as though they were underestimating him personally, even though they didn't know he was from Alexandria.
Ron being drunk definitely wasn't helping either.
"Well yeah, I was. Why are you bringing it up?" Justin replied, surprised with Ron's anger.
"So what's the difference? What makes you better than those people?" Ron tried to defend his friends.
"Hilltops not the same. Not as cushy, you know? And I don't even live there anymore.
Why are you being so defensive anyway?
You see a hot girl there or something?" Justin said.
"No I just.." Ron started, not sure how to explain himself.

"You know what? You just reminded me, Justin. Why are you always single, Ronnie boy? I mean, you're a good looking guy, and you got those bite marks. Don't the women like that shit?" Negan questioned him.
Although Ron didn't like this question, at least it moved the conversation from Alexandria.
"I don't know, do they?" Ron said, leaning back in his seat.
"I'd think so. Its kinda like the vampires. You guys remember when all the girls liked them?" Gavin said, reminiscing.
"I do. So why don't you have even one girlfriend boy?" Simon chimed in.
"I.." Ron searched his mind for an answer.
"I have a question! Might be a little personal, you don't have to answer.
Are you still a virgin kid?" Negan said smiling.

"What?! No!" Ron said defensively.
"I don't know. That was awfully defensive." Simon joked.
"I'm not. Really." Ron said truthfully, thinking of Carl.
"Hhm. I believe him. Seems genuine." Negan said.
"Look, I know you saw me marry Dwighty boys wife, and maybe you do have a girlfriend and that's why you're not telling me. But I won't take your girlfriend. Our age groups don't overlap. And I really want to know if you have a girlfriend." Negan said, patting Dwight's shoulder.
"I don't have a girlfriend." Ron said, done with this conversation.
"But you'll tell us when you do?" Gary said something for the first time.
"Why are you so worried with it?" Ron asked, starting to get upset.
"Why are you upset?" Negan asked, noticing that the conversation was bothering him.

"I just.." Ron started, everyone quiet for a moment.
"I don't like girls." He stated, surely only admitting it due to drinking.

"Well damn. Now I feel like I've been.. well, I don't know what you'd call it. It feels like misgendering someone, but I don't know the name." Negan said, trying to find the right words.
"Heteronormativity. I think that's what it's called." Dwight said.

A wide smile went across Negans face.
"So, you got a boyfriend?" He asked, excited for his answer.
Ron sighed, taking the bottle from Negan and taking a drink.
"No." He lied.
"But you'll tell us when you do?" Gavin stole Gary's question.
"Yeah sure." Ron said, not intending to ever tell them about Carl.

Simon smiled.
"So. Can tell us about the boy or boys you have dated?" He asked, always nosy.
Ron shook his head no.
Negan could tell this had something to do with how he found him that night.
He didn't know how or when, but he would get the whole story someday.
Ron was surprised with how accepting they were. It was nothing like Pete.

...

"Hey. How are feeling?" Aaron asked Carl, who was sitting by the water.
"I don't know. It's like I miss him even more now that I can have him. It's like a dream, when he was here. And I'm afraid I'll wake up and it won't have been real, you know?" Carl tried express his feelings.
"Yeah I know. I feel the same way." Aaron said.

...

Ron parked his truck at the meeting spot with the kingdom.
Ezekiel was thankful that Ron was his trading partner, and not someone like Simon.
He had heard what the hilltop deals with when Simon comes.

"That is a big fucking axe Jerry." Ron said, walking towards the group of kingdomers.
"I know. It's cool right?" Jerry said with a proud smile.
"Yeah. Hella cool. How's Nabila and the kids?" Ron asked, always having a cordial relationship with the people of the kingdom.
"They're doing great. Mariam is already nine months old. Can you believe that?" Jerry said.
"No I can't. Seem like just last week that she was born.
Well, anyway, I need twelve pigs. That sound right?" Ron said, taking out a note pad to double check.
"That's what we brought." Ezekiel said, opening the back of his truck.
"Good. It looks good." Ron said, his mind wondering back to Alexandria as usual.

"Alright. Load them up for him." Ezekiel asked his people.
Ron looked of into the forest, lost in his own thoughts.

"You ok? Seem a little lost." Ezekiel said, leaning on the car next to Ron.
"I don't know. It's just a lot is going on. It's hard to explain." Ron said, not wanting to tell Ezekiel about Alexandria.
"Yeah I can imagine. I think I'd go insane if I had to see negan every day." Ezekiel joked.
"God. You don't even know." Ron joked back.
"In all seriousness, if something is wrong, or you need help, just let me know. A can't imagine that Negan or any of the other saviors are very good at emotional support." Ezekiel said, always willing to help anyone.
"I will, Ezekiel. Thanks. But I'm ok, really." Ron said, grateful for him.
"I'm glad then." Ezekiel replied sincerely.

"Alright. They're all loaded up kid." Jerry said, patting Ron's shoulder.
"Thanks. See you guys next week. It's produce week." Ron said.
"Yep. We'll be bringing melons." Ezekiel informed Ron.
"I love melons. Take care." Ron , getting into his truck.

...

"How's the kingdom?" Negan asked, entering Ron room uninvited.
"Hm? Good. Twelve pigs as we asked." Ron said, surprised with Negans sudden appearance.
"You know what? I heard a rumor that Ezekiel has a pet fucking tiger. Is that true?" Negan said, closing the door behind him.
"Really? I've never seen it or heard him talk about that. You think you'd mention something like that." Ron said, wondering if it was true.
"I don't know. Sounds like a stupid rumor for fun to me." Negan assumed incorrectly.
"Probably." Ron agreed.

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This chapter sucks I'm sorry 😭
Barley any Carl or rarl I'm sorryyyyyy