yet again ANOTHER one of those everything books.

getting into new things is hard

i dont know why

but trying to get into something new that i know ill definitely love is just- its just- its like taking SATs. ive never taken SATs.

like i can get into music easily, but games, some random movie or something? i ca n t.

right now i think im into Skinamarink. i watched it like less than a month ago, i was scared so bad i wouldnt leave my sister's room alone. i also still have no idea what its about.

my brain cant piece it together! i can summarize it via google (thanks google) but doesnt mean i get it!

 two children, Kevin and Kaylee, wake up late at night and find their dad is missing, and they are trapped in their house (disappearing doors and windows) experiencing strange things like entities, graphic, traumatic ways these entities tell them to hurt themselves and disappearing objects/close ups on objects. hey, i didnt even use google for this! YIPPIEe

and honestly, the jumpscares, the randomness, how quiet and confusing everything is is my type of movie! well kinda im very much a wimp with the horror category and i cowarded in my blanket as i watched. if you seen it you would have/did too!

but anyway anyway besides the point, its h a r d. i have genres that definitely pull me in, like horror and comedy and sci fi, analog horror pulled me in just now (hella interesting, like my obsession with EAS Scenarios), but with games? its like "stay away at all times i swear to god-"

i mean i try, its all about maybe,,,color, plot, characters (characters are v important, fanart material teehee) and ofc genre. funny, Skinamarink has none of these and you hardly see the kids' faces. 

like if its mainly fighting, which i suck at except for in Mortal Kombat with Sub Zero and Scott Pilgrim the game, then its a no for me. if its what i listed before, horror or something, cutesy, maybe platformer, something with building and customization or has science fiction(ooh and puzzles!), then yea sure ill give it a try! 

music and books seriously are so much easier.

and i hate that this goes for STORIES TOO LIKE CMON!

i look at the...actually free wattpad stories often and though most of it is inappropriate, the ones that ARENT end up a teeny bit BORING! hhhhfhfffhnfmm 

actually it might just be because im boring- well i cant confess to that or its true!- its true

i wanna get into lots of things, likeeeeeeee D&D, Zelda,,,, anndd uhh... uhh...thats kinda....it because...i dont know..anything..else? i require...assistance. yea i think thats a wrap. thats- this story is- the story's a wrap.

uhmmm morals?

using the genres i like i need to find something new, would this have been easier if i set it as my new year's resolution?, more points if it has sad parts thatll make me cry, i seriously wanna play D&D, my friends on discord play it all the time and i never get it but it sounds so fun, itll take some time to get into Zelda but from what i know itll be worth it, you can just listen to music and love it after the second replay, but for me as for shows and games thats impossible asf, why am i so complicated, The Evolution Of Trust is a good game..?, a shorty chapter we love these ahahaha, and seriously, WHY DOES EVERYTHING DISAPPEAR AND REPEAT IN SKINAMARINK I NEED ANSWERS!!!

ok uhm 

i gotta work,,or slack off a little bit more watching analog horrors. so,,so with this uh...

bye bye!