When the green games came too an end at the end of the week i realised how Much i kept myself isolated form everyone other then Olivia. If I wasn't in the room provided to me i was walking around the school or watching everyone from a distance. Nothing eventful happened after the first day. I never felt Lilith again while at the school but i was still having nightmares about Olivia's eyes and a few things Lilith had previously done to me. Just reliving them worst moments every other night.
After returning to school there was a couple of days of catch up classes for the term before we went on break. Olivia told me she would meet me at my home which didnt bother me since she agreed to move in with me these holidays. Olivia is allowing me to finally buy things for her more often until she can get a paying job to support herself. I don't think she realises how unnecessary that it because of mum running the business side of my companies i have enough money that mum lets Blake and Ian bludge off me without any issues.
I used my private portal to get home rather then using the train. I don't want to unnecessarily be around a bunch of people like that. Especially Casey who got on my nerves as usual. Walking into my home mum looked at me as she came down the stairs.
"Home already?" She asked smiling at me and greeting me with a hug. "Where is liv?" Mum asked me curious.
"She told me that she had a few things to do with friends before coming home. She knows how to get here when she is ready." I answered mum as i hugged her back.
"Mum!" I heard a female voice call out from the lounge room. I turned my attention to it
"Who is here?" I asked loosing all my joy of coming home
"Just Rachel. She got here this morning and is waiting for Ian to get here so they can move onto their next task together." Mum explained to me as she walked me to the lounge room to see Rachel.
"Hey Gem, I wasn't expecting you back yet." Rachel spoke smiling at me form where she sat on my couch.
"Yes well i didn't want to get on the train with the others." I informed her before hearing more voice. I turned around going back to the foyer where i saw Ian Blake and Casey walk though my personal portal. They looked at me when i caught them doing something they weren't allowed to do. One because they didn't ask. Two they are going into my bedroom at the school to access this portal. None of them have permission to be in my room any more. "Get out of my house." I spoke monotone looking at them as i crossed my arm
"You dont have to be so mean about it." Casey spoke. Of course she spoke she always has something to say.
"I am being nice. I could very easily push you back though the portal and close it leaving you stuck at the school." I reminded her because i didnt want them here.
"We have been coming here for ages and your mum is practically family to us gem." Ian spoke attempting to reason with me now
"Fine have the fucking house! Ignore the fact everything you get from my mum is because i pay for it." I snapped i was furious.
"gem honey calm down." Mum spoke in a soothing tone
"No! This was my home and everyone has fucking moved in here! She fucking assaulted me last time she was in my home so im done. This is their house im moving somewhere private and alone so them fuckers can't let themselves into my home unannounced anymore!" I yelled angry. "My anger is deserved because for the past year Blake and Ian have been financially dependent on my money. Casey has attempted to fucking kill me in my own home but no one would believe me when I said it so i kept quiet about it. Too many people have a key to i this house. Talia has a key to this house and is bought this house after i had a falling out with her. So no. I wont live in a house where all the people who hate me or want to kill me have a key to it!" I snapped and turned to go upstairs to pack myself a bag and go find either a new place to live or just stay in a hotel until i can work everything out. I am leaning more towards the hotel
I ended up checking into a hotel in town so i could wait for Olivia to get in before going anywhere else. I havent heard from anyone else. After i left no one contacted me. Mum didnt even attempt to stop me. It was a little reminder how much she is actually scared of me. When night fell i drove back home to meet up with Olivia. She would have no idea what happened this morning so i have shown up to collect her.
When i got back to the house i let myself in being quiet but i could hear the laughing coming from the lounge room. I glanced into the lounge seeing everyone playing a bunch of board games and haven't a good time. Jason Kyle ryker and Philip where here too. And another woman's i didn't recognise but i saw the way Philip looked at her and assumed that was his wife. Mum looked like she was having the time of her life with them and i could see she held no fear being around them, like she does when she is around me.
I couldn't stop the tears from overflowing as i leaned against the wall listening to them playing games. Looking at the door that Olivia would come though i changed my mind. She didnt need to come with me. She deserves this family that was build for supporting each other. I was always the burden on this family and i should seperate myself from them. Leave them alone so they can all be happy without me around. Without me flying off the handles over a minor things.
I turned going back to go back out the front door but my hand was grabbed. I didn't fight the gentle grasp on my wrist. I could identify it as a woman that had grabbed me but i was too upset to recognise the touch. Nothing was said and a moment later my wrist was let go. I shifted my eyes to see who stopped me it was the woman I didn't recognise. She looked at me and i saw tears streaming from her eyes as she just starred at me why was she crying.
"Eliza?" Philip called out before he came into view and saw me before he saw his wife crying. He gave a sign that told me he expected this "she touch you?" Philip asked and I gave a slight nod not answering him verbally. He nodded slightly. Eliza looked up at Philip i had never see so much pain and suffering in someone's eyes before. Did she have a rough life?"
"Can you do anything?" She asked him sounding hopeful
"Im sorry sweetheart." Philip spoke in a regretful tone as he looked at her sad.
"But-' Philip cut Eliza off but placing his finger to her lips
"We will talk about it later." He told her and she nodded before he gently pushed her towards the lounge.
Once she was gone Philip turned to looked at me. He looked worried
"How long was she touching you?" He asked a little angry now
"Does it matter?" I asked him with no emotions in my voice. I had made myself numb so i could get out of here without becoming volatile.
"I need to know how long she spent reliving the most traumatic experience you have had." Philip told me. He love that woman i could tell because the way he was speaking to me now. I was only second to her and i was greatful he prioitised her but what he said
"Relive my most traumatic experience?" I asked him worried now
"When Eliza touches someone she can see into. Their past. Normally she can control it. But when it comes to people like you..." he trailed off hesitating now
"What do you mean people like me?" I asked him
"People who have cheated death. She's drawn to them people and is compelled to seek out what caused them pain. I promise she didn't mean to invite your past but she can't help it at times. So i need to know how long." Philip spoke
"A minute maybe" i whispered dropping my eyes to the ground. What did she relive? What past trauma did she face of mine?
"Can you tell me what she might have seen?" Philip asked me and i shook my head no
"I doubt know what the most traumatic thing is?" I whispered to him "you know vague details of what i have gone through Philip. But i have never told anyone how bad it use to get. I always sugar coated my trauma." I explained to him and he nodded slightly.
"Are you leaving?" He asked me and i nodded slightly "aren't you waiting for Olivia?" He asked me confused now
"Why should i wait? You all build the perfect family with my mother and now im the problem. So no i wont wait because everyone's better off without me around." I told him upset and angry. I wanted to scream and cry and burn things to the ground. "If im not around anymore no one else will get hurt." I told him before leaving the house again.
No one stopped me so i went out of town someone private and secluded before i screamed and cried i burned trees punched rocks smashed branched against tree. I let out all my violent anger on the forest around me because i didn't know what else to do. I was at my limits with life. The angrier was growing more and more each day. Without her by my side every tiny thing sets me off in a fit of rage. But I couldn't do that to Olivia. Force her to be at my side twenty four seven just so i dont loose my temper over a paper cut. It's not right and its not healthy to do that to her either. Eventually she will resent me for it.
Falling to my knees i looked at he sky only stars could be seen no moon in sight. I was left with few options. I could kill my self and eventually the apocalypse will happen and everyone will die. Or i could just keep things how they are now. Use Olivia to keep myself happy and tolerable until she hates me then kill my self. And my last option. Brake up with her close the last two gates and kill myself. That way she can live a long happy life and won't have me around dragging her down making her life miserable.
Forgive me Love. I will do anything to give you the life you deserve. Even if its without me.
