our little dubu

dahyun my dear, dont ever disappear. (saida)

tw : abuse, r4pe

"i love you so much, you know that right?"
sana told me.

my lips bleeding, i hesitantly answer.
"yes."

she smiled.

if i ever tried to talk to anyone about my relationship with sana, sana will know. afterall... she's always watching me.

i was at the doctors again.

"this... this isn't the result of hitting your head against the wall on accident. has someone been abusing you? you've been going here a lot lately."

i swallowed anxiously.

"i- no... ?"

the doctor looked at me, suspicious.

"come. i'll bandage you. just take some medicine when you get home."

i cannot escape, and will never.

at this point i give up.

i give up on hope.

i give up on her social life.

i give up on trying to escape.

i give up on trying to impress everyone.

i give up on life.

the butterflies in my stomach i used to feel... nothing anymore.

my first meeting with her felt comfortable.

"hello! my name is sana."

her loving smile, gone.

"oh, my name is dahyun! nice to meet you!"

her loving voice, gone.

"i hope we can become friends, dahyun-ah."

her loving personality, gone.

"dahyun-ah, i... i love you."

her loving appearance, destroyed.

"why? why did you talk to her again? didn't i tell you to not?"

what did i do wrong?

"don't leave me... please."

why?

"dahyun-ah, come here."

she pushed me against the table,

her hand crept up my shirt.

"stop!" i sobbed.

she didn't stop.

her hand eventually got to my private part.
she smirked.

it hurt. a lot.

leaving bruises on my legs.

bite marks on my collar bone.

my outfit unbuttoned.

dry tears on my face.

i shouldnt have said yes that day.