Under My Protection

Chapter 11

As Rain licked a stripe up Phayu's neck, ending at his ear, he could feel Phayu shift to one side. Lifting his head to see, he watched as Phayu pressed his phone to his other ear.

"Bun Ma, could you maybe ...." Phayu began, then stopped, clearly being interrupted by Ma.

Phayu listened for a moment before laughing quietly, "Yes, thank you, I ...."

Interrupted again, Phayu smiled before answering again, "Thank you Bun Ma."

Phayu tossed his phone up towards the pillows, "Bun Ma, will keep a lookout, so should we continue?"

Rain giggled. He knew Bun Ma had always wanted him to be happy but the idea of her being a lookout for him so he could have sex, well, it was certainly never something he'd ever imagined. It felt oddly safe and comforting but at the same time naughty and embarrassing. The edges of Rain's mind curled inwards knowing that Bun Ma knew exactly what he was doing at this moment.

Rain was jolted from his thoughts by Phayu's hands lifting the bottom edge of his shirt, "Stop worrying about what Bun Ma is thinking right now. She obviously doesn't care. Scratch that, I actually think she likes being our lookout. So, stop thinking about her and refocus back on me."

Rain held still as Phayu lifted his shirt over his head, placing it carefully next to them on the bed. Rain hated the caution they had to take in these moments. Half in the moment, yet half prepared to stop, dress quickly, and act like nothing had been happening. He knew why they had to do it this way. He understood. He did. But, he still wanted for Phayu to rip his clothes off of him, throwing them around the room with his mind solely focused on Rain, not half-filled with the fear of being caught.

Knowing how Phayu liked to be in charge both in and out of the bedroom, Rain was certain that Phayu wanted the same thing. To take Rain without caution. To take his time. Everytime they were together it was rushed, enjoying the pull of their bodies towards one another but also hurrying to completion.

Phayu pushed Rain back until they both stood at the foot of the bed, hurriedly ridding them both of their clothes, again laying them carefully in two neat piles. Phayu nodded towards the pillows, "Up you go monkey."
Rain crawled to the top of the bed, waiting as Phayu crawled over top of him, pressing his body down on top of Rain. He reached for the lube they kept stashed in a ceramic jar on Rain's nightstand, placing it next to them.

"Be a good boy and lay still for Phayu."

Though Phayu almost always told him to stay still, it still sent flames up and down his body, every single time, knowing Phayu was in charge. Phayu decided when he could reach up and touch, kiss. So, he waited, wanting to be Phayu's good boy.

Rain closed his eyes as Phayu traveled the length of his body, placing wet kisses on his ears, jaw, collarbones. Rain arched back, gripping the bedspread, as Phayu sucked each nipple, almost painfully, between his lips. Phayu spent longer on Rain's soft belly, sucking marks into the skin, a place Phayu felt safe leaving marks. Walking around each day with those marks, knowing they were there when he passed by Channarong or the other guards, filled Rain with a smug satisfaction that all of these powerful people surrounded them but still couldn't keep them apart.

After lubing up his fingers, Phayu pushed one into Rain, "Isn't my baby beautiful?" Although Rain knew what Phayu wanted, the fullness and slight sting he felt, stole his ability to respond.

"Say it," Phayu demanded softly, stopping the in and out slide of his now two fingers.

Rain tilted his head up slightly to look at Phayu, who remained unmoving.

"I'm beautiful," Rain breathed out shakily. Phayu demanded these words every time and, although they hadn't talked about it, Rain knew it was Phayu's way of trying to replace the negative thoughts in Rain's head with loving ones.

Phayu smiled back at him briefly before simultaneously swallowing Rain's cock and pushing in a third finger. Rain let go of the bedspread and slipped his fingers into Phayu's hair, gripping tightly. "Hands down baby," Phayu mumbled with his mouth full.

Rain pulled his hands from Phayu's hair and was about to return them to their fisted place on the bedspread before Phayu sat up abruptly, grabbing Rain, switching their positions. Straddling Phayu, Rain looked down, momentarily confused. Oh. Wait. Oh, Phayu wanted him to.... Oh.

Phayu pushed Rain back slightly, covered himself with lube, then pulled Rain back on top of him, lifting him slightly. Rain fell forward slightly, hands landing on Phayu's chest, which he pulled back immediately.

Rain watched as Phayu chuckled, "You can touch now baby."

Rain placed his hands back on Phayu's chest, lifting himself up before feeling Phayu slowly push in as he guided Rain down, hands pushing gently on his shoulders.

Despite the almost painful stretch, Rain began moving up and down, Phayu's hands on his hips, setting the pace. Phayu sat up, wrapping his fingers around Rain's neck, crushing their lips together. Rain found it hard to concentrate on everything all at once, overwhelmed by the closeness of their bodies and Phayu's mouth on his. Thoughts of his father, the stupid date with Yihwa, the worry they would be caught, were gone as he lost himself in the feel of Phayu sliding in and out of him. Rain cried out, cumming between them, slicking up their stomachs, as Phayu thrust several more times before cumming inside of him.

Due to the urgency that Rain hated, Phayu quickly kissed his forehead, laid him down on the bed, moved to the bathroom, and returned with a wet towel. After cleaning them both, Phayu passed Rain his clothes and they both got dressed, silently. Both knowing that they hated this part.

Phayu straightened the bedspread before lying down next to Rain, curling around him from behind, arm slid under Rain's neck.

"I love you so so much, my little monkey," Phayu murmured, kissing Rain's neck, and stroking his hand up and down Rain's arm.

"I love you too P'Phayu."

Rain both loved and hated these moments, cuddling together on his bed. He imagined they were living in their own home, lying on their shared bed. Imagined that there were no clothes between them, just the covers that Phayu would place over them before settling behind Rain. Imagined they could fall asleep like this, napping through the afternoon, then waking up to shower together. Imagined they could slip downstairs, hand-in-hand to the kitchen, Phayu lifting Rain onto the countertop as he made them dinner. Imagined them eating together on a blanket spread out on the garden grass, taking turns feeding each other small bites from their own plates.

But Rain also knew that those imagined moments would stay trapped in his mind with no place to exist in their real lives. Not unless they could find a way out of this trapped existence. Rain shook his head slightly, trying to clear the images from behind his eyes before turning his body to face Phayu, knowing his eyes would reflect the same imaginings back at him.

Rain burrowed himself into Phayu's chest, listening as Phayu called Bun Ma. "Hi Bun Ma..... yes, we......yes, thank you Ma," Phayu tried to say, once again being interrupted.

Rain kept his eyes closed as he felt Phayu place a kiss on his forehead and slip his arms out from around him. He felt the bed dip as Phayu got up. Heard his feet walk across the room and slip on his shoes. Heard the door open. Listened to the silence for a few moments, before he heard the door close.

Rain rolled to face the ceiling, eyes still closed, draping an arm over his face, allowing his mind to once again be filled with thoughts of their beautiful, imagined life together.

Notes:

Okay, so, here are the "other things." The smut turned out to be a bit sad, which wasn't my initial intent, but that's what came out of my head. As I wrote, I changed the chapter to make it more realistic for the situation they are in.

Next week: the return of some people none of us like.