Elliannas pov
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School dragged on slowly, I talked a little more about what was happening at home with Julia in Spanish which we had together 6th period. She was really sweet about it and I decided that even though she was one of maddies friends she wasn't a bitch like most of maddies friends. But besides that nothing of importance happened and I stood by my locker waiting for Shane so we could go to whatever he had planed. I stood there scrolling on Instagram trying to get my mind off of my home life.
"Hey can I talk to you?" I looked up from my phone and saw a very concerned boy in front of me. "Yes Colin." he got close to me and lowered his voice. "I'm serious Ellianna, if shit gets serious at your house, just come over or call me. I'll be over there as fast as I can get over there. I've got time to make up for." his green eyes had a twinkle of mischief in them.
"I seriously hope it dosent come to that. But thank you Colin ill let you know if i need something." Colin reached out and embraced me, I accepted, it didnt feel forgein in anyway, in fact things were feeling like they did when we were kids, including drama surrounded by my moms boyfriends. I lingered in Colins hug, grateful to have my makeshift big brother back, grateful to finally feel some physical comfort for the unbeleavible stress I had felt throughout the day.
"Are you ready?" A new voice snuck in my ear. I broke away out of Colins arms and I looked up and saw Shane, Colins eyes flitted between the two of us. "Oh are you tutouring her today?" Shane and I locked eyes, I dont think he wanted Colin tagging along. "Yeah." Shane growled a hint of jealousy lacing his voice. What the fuck was that about. "Okay well, if you need me Elli, you know where i am." Colin said with a bittersweet smile as he turned and blended with the thinning hallway crowd.
Shane turned to the front exit of the school and I followed. "What was that about?" I asked calmly. Shane just shrugged his shoulders. "What are you talking about?" He was so nonchalant, it kind of pissed me off. "Your attitude Shane, the way you snapped at Colin, you were acting all jealous, you never act that way." He gazed at me a bit, calculating the words he would chose. " I dont know if I trust him when it comes to you, thats all." His defensive wall cane down a little bit, I could tell my Shane was returning.
"Colin is the brother I never had, he was sincere in his apologys, the whole incident is behind us now."We aproched Shanes car, "besides, you have made it clear that you have no intention of dating me, so why cant I rely on Colin?" Shane blocked the passenger side of the car. His expression shifted and i could feel his ever present confidence dissapate. "Because, I dont want you to stop relying on me." I looked at him sheepishly. "I dont understand you Shane, you dont want to be with me but yet you still feel this intense need to protect me and now your getting all jealous around Colin? It dosent make sense." Shane took a deep breath and sighed. "I just dont want to see you get hurt, and I definitly dont want to hurt you, I care about you Elli, thats all." His voice was soft and sweet, the Shane I felt comfortable around and trusted had returned, all traces of jealousy had dissapered. "Im just already stressed with shit at home, I dont need to add you and Colin fighting to the mix." It was just then where i felt the tiredness fome over my body, i was tired of the reama a d the fighting, not to mention i needed sleep.
"The last thing I want is for you to be stressed, lets get out of here and take your mind off things." I nodded my head as Shane opened the passenger door to his mustang and I climbed in. I stared at him as we drove out of the school parking lot. I decided I wasnt mad at him, just like me he had been through some shit and it was possible his wounds were fresher than my own.
I gazed as his dirty blonde hair, for once not sweaty and disheviled after football practice. His broad shoulds making him look tall and confident even while he was drving. The only person I was mad at right now was myself for liking him.
We pulled into the parking lot of a movie theatre and Shane and I both got out of the car. As we were walking towards the front my phone rang. I pulled it out of the front pocket of my hoodie and awnsered it. "Hi mom" I answered sweetly. She immeaditly started talking to me in a hostile tone. "Ellianna where are you." She demaned. "Im still at school in the library, i have chem tutoring today." I lied, Shane gave me a concerned look. "Well you need to come home, now. Scott is coming over for dinner." My heart stopped, my worst nightmare was coming true, the man who assulted me was stepping back into my home.
"I have a quiz wednsday mom its important i have my tutoring session." I told her seriously hoping to get out of dinner. "No Ellianna you need to be here, its a family dinner." My heart dropped to my stomach, there was no getting out of this. "Fine Ill have my tutor drop me off at home." I told her bitterly hanging up, i felt like I was about to cry. "So he is coming for dinner?" Shane asked me, I turned and headed back for Shanes car. "Yup" I felt my chest getting tight, a panic attack was coming on but I was determined to hold it back, I would not let shane see me like that. I opened the car door and got back inside. Shane did the same i put my head on the dashboard and closed my eyes trying to fight my anxiety. "Elli are you okay?" I turned to face him fighting back the urge to cry. "No, i dont want to do this, I dont want to see his face, I hate that man." I could see the gears turing in Shanes head, I knew he wanted to help me but I couldnt think of a sulution. "Ill come to dinner with you." My eyes went wide. "No I couldnt ask that of you Shane." He calmly shrugged his shoulders. "Your not asking im offering." I sat up and leaned back. "So what you just show up? my mom wouldnt say anything to my face, she would want to keep up apperances." Im sure once Shane left i would be yelled at, but id rather have that then have to face my assulter head on. Shane gazed at me with his choclatey brown eyes. Waiting for a finsl awnser. "Okay looks like your have dinner at the insane asylum tonight." I confirmed incredibally anxious for the night to come.
