Shane
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As I left the treehouse and headed back over to Colins house my head was swimming with thoughts. First off I was pissed at Colin, I didnt care if it was 2 years ago or not, what he did was a total asshole move and I fully intended to make him aware of it. Second, Ellianna finally made sense, i understood her hesitancy to trust and now we were friends and I valued that more than anyone could know.
Third, I couldnt belive i told her about my life in mississippi and I almost kissed her of course I wanted too but I couldnt destroy her not the way I did to Bri. It wouldnt be fair to her she had already been through way too much and there was no way I would inflict any more damage to her heart.
I opened Colins back door and entered his kitchen where his mom was making dinner, Mrs,Moore was nice, a stay at home mom who had way too much time on her hands and too much gossip and love to share. As Colin and I became closer, she was becoming a second mom to me, making sure she had game day goodies for me and her son or packing extra sandwiches for Colin to give to me. She knew my mom wasnt around and always made me feel at home in the Moore household.
"Oh, Shane your back from Elliannas, im making spagetti for dinner your welcome to stay if youd like." As much as a homecooked meal sounded good, I knew after the confrontation i was about to have with Colin i would be going home.
"Thank you Mrs.Moore but my dad wants me home for dinner tonight, is Colin upstairs?" Her face showed a bit of dissapointment, but still she was smiling. "Yes I think he is in the media room." I nodded my head and headed up to media room, Colin was gaming peacufully. But just seeing him was making me angry.
"Hey." I said simply trying not to let my anger get the best of me. He didnt pause the game or look at me. "Your finally back. You were gone a long freaking time." He told me with a bit of attitude in his voice.
"Yeah well we had a lot to talk about." I said with a bit of sarcasm. He kept playing his game i didnt sit down on the couch.
"Like what, just all the shit that happened last night?" He said nonchelantly. Not even having a inkling of what else Elli and I might have talked about.
"Yeah that was part of it, She also Told me what happened in 8th grade, between you and her and what happened with her moms boyfriend." Colin finally paused the game and then made eye contact with me his green eyes a mix of fear and guilt.
"She told you the whole thing?" He asked probably scared that I was going to see him for who he truly was.
"Every word Colin, how could you? How could stare at her after she told you that and dissmiss her like that?" I asked my voice level raising a bit although I wasmt yelling.
"Do you belive her?" He deflected avoiding my string of acusatory questions. I scoffed at him how could he be serious?
"How could I not? She was so genuine, so vulberable and hurt. And who lies about that kind of stuff, are you kidding me?" Now I was borderline yelling but Colin was irritating the shit out of me and acting like a giant dick. He sat there on the couch like an idiot staring at me, his small simple mind probablly blank.
"And what gets me is she told you not even a week after it happened, she told you sitting there right in front of you beat up with a black eye. And somehow that wasnt enough to convince you that something horrible happened to her." Colin let out a frustrated sigh.
"I was 13 Shane, i dont even know if I understood what was going on I" he started before I cut him off. "That dosent excuse you, we all knew at 13 what sexual assault is. And its the fact you turned around and told everyone at school she was asking for it. Thats what really makes you a giant douche bag." Colin finally stood up and met my level, but still I felt like I had the advantage, even if i was only taller by 3 inches and only the slightest bit more muscular. If we were about to fight I would definitly win.
"So what are you gonna do about it? Kick my ass and defend her honor?" He said mocking me obviously trying to push my buttons but I stood down unlike him I knew better.
" No im not because unlike you im a real fucking man." Colin laughed at me which made me clench my fists maybe I would fight him after all.
"Really? Ellianna and the rest of northview may not know it but you told me your past, all the shitty things you did in Jeffrson, i know better and your no better a man than me Shane, so dont act like it." He folded his arms over his chest and painted a smug look on his face. I couldnt help it, I shoved him.
"Take it back, you know im trying to change, and I told her about what I did to Brianna. She deserved to know that, especially after what she told me." I spoke through gritted teeth, trying to not let my anger get the best of me, trying to not let who I was take over who I was becoming. I had to remind myself it wasnt worth it.
"You told her about Brianna but I know there's no way you told her about everything else, there's no way you told her about your brother and the parties and the drugs." Colin was getting under my skin and I was slowly regretting telling him all the shit that went down last year when I lived in Mississipi.
"Elli dosent need to know about any of that, and dont you dare tell her." I yelled at him dead serious. If he told Elli that I would never forgive him. The choices I had made were mine and I would get to decide wether or not i told Elli.
"Im not going to, its not my business, just like what happened between me and her wasnt your business." Colin finished with a smug look on his face. I scoffed ik disbelif, Colin was a bonafide asshole, and I wasnt going to put up with his shit.
"Whatever, im going home, by the way you can find another ride to school tomrrow." I said as I started heading towards the door of the media room.
"Wow thats petty, I thought you were the bigger man." He said sarcastically. "I dint give rides to people who bully girls who get sexually assaulted, so deal with it." I told him before storming out of his house and back to my car.
I was seething with anger, the fact that Colin still refused to own up to what he did pissed me off, and even if i wasnt going to phisically fight him I still intended to make him pay. His time would come after school tomrrow, i was gonna make him look like the ass he was on the football feild and I knew the punishment our coach would give him for a bad practice was way worse then any kind of beating I could give him.
