Behind a Teacher is a Secret Agent

Update 32: Threshold

I don't do proofreading and those first fifteen updates - I made them when I was still in sophomore in secondary education that's why they're kind of... ya know what I mean.

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Update 32: Threshold

 

|Astrid's POV|

 

 

There are times that you don't want to expect anything but still willing to wait for the possibility that it will happen.

 

...and I'm like a high school girl waiting for that damn possibility to happen.

"How are you?" He said.

I thought we'll just going to stare at each other like what the fvck. Kanina pa kami nagtititigan at nagpapakiramdaman sa bawat galaw ng isa't-isa and I would not mind if I can kill him with my bear eyes but I can't do that. Well atleast, not now.

"I'm good. Now that you've already knew, you may leave."

I tucked myself in bed and get back inside my blanket. He didn't say anything even a single word, not that I'm expecting him to say something but it's very unusual – very unusual that he is agreeing with me to make distance in between us. I heard him sigh and I take that as a sign to close my eyes. This might be good for me...for us.

Oh come on, Astrid. You never had that 'us'. As in not ever, dear.

 

"Are you still mad at me, sweety?" I heard his footsteps coming near. And sweety? What about that endearment?

"Don't go near me. Go away." I tugged my blanket and face the wall beside my bed without opening my eyes. And for the second time, I heard him sigh.

Napapikit ako ng mariin at napakapit ng mahigpit sa aking kumot. This is just a mission and I shall not include my personal feelings for Pete's sake. Damn it. Why does it hurt so much? Is this really the thing about pain? It demands to be felt like what Augustus Waters have said? Why does everything always fall in the wrong place?

I know that I felt that green little monster called jealousy when I saw them kissed and it feels like hell. It feels like the walls I build around me to protect myself from being hurt by others suddenly breaks apart and it sucks.

"I wish that I could wake up with amnesia

And forget about the stupid little things

Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you

And the memories I never can escape" He is singing without the tone of the song. He is making his own version with a smooth flow and it's making its way straight to my heart. Darn. I crumpled the blanket on my chest. I can't breathe. This is no good.

 

"If today I woke up with you right beside me

Like all of this was just some twisted dream