Embracing Her Flaws

C-4

I don't know but starting that night,whenever I see Roman,my heart beats so fast like an idiot. Do I need to see a doctor? Do I need to be checked? I'm just worried on myself,maybe I got a serious heart disease right now.

"Himala hindi ka nagsabing may lakad ka ngayon," I glanced at Roman. Wearing his usual black shirt paired with his black shorts. Nakasuot lang din ito ng kulay puting tsinelas.

"What? I'm going to the mall mamaya,busy lang ako ngayon." Bahagya siyang natawa sa sinabi ko. One thing I noticed about Roman,since the incident last night he became more light on me. Nakikita ko na siyang tumatawa at nakikipag-usap. Hindi na kagaya noong una na masyado siyang masungit at antipatiko.

I like this kind of him,actually.

"Okay" He said. Nilingon ko siya,gaya ng pwesto ko ay nakaupo din siya sa gilid ng pool,bahagyang nakalublob ang paa sa tubig. Hindi ko maiwasang punahin ang mabalbon niyang hita,its hair is quite thick.

"What about you? You're almost two weeks staying here,don't you miss your family?" Pang-uusisa ko rito. Madalas ko siyang nakikitang hawak ang cellphone niya at may katawagan roon.

"Hmm? I miss them actually,nagbabalak akong umuwi doon siguro sa susunod na araw." He answered. I can't help but to nodd. Okay lang pala sa wife niya na magtrabaho ng malayo? I heard from daddy that he came from a province. If I were a girl,I would not let my husband work from a far place.

"Mabuti at payag ang wife mo? Does your kiddos missed you?" I wonder how his kids looks like. May itsura ang tatay and for sure,his kids will inherit his looks.

Bahagya siyang natawa sa sinabi ko. He then started to play with the water using his feet. Hindi ko alam pero bahagya akong nainis sa kanya. He did not answer my question.

"Do I really look old?" He let out a sarcastic laugh. Inirapan ko siya.

"No,but your age says you're old. How old are you again?26?" Hindi ko maiwasang maging mausisa. There's something inside who wants to know him more.

"Yeah" Tugon nito sa akin. "Old enough to make a family but I don't want to." Ani nito sa akin.

Sa bagay,he's not that sociative kaya malamang sa malamang ay hindi pa 'to nagkakajowa o ano.

Hindi na din naman ako nagbukas ng topic pagkatapos nun. I just busied myself with the water,ganoon din ang ginawa niya.

So he doesn't have a family? I mean a wife and a kids? Wait? Why do I even care? Ano namang pakealam ko kung meron siyang anak at asawa? Of course I don't care!

Inis na nilingon ko siya sa isiping iyon. But it was a wrong move,the moment I turn my eyes on him,our gaze locked up. Para akong nanigas sa kinauupuan ko ng makita ko ang seryosong titig niya sa akin. And then butterflies twirling up inside my tummy started to get wild,sumabay din doon ang biglaang pagpintig ng mabilis ng puso ko. Para akong kinakapos ng hininga.

This is the first time I'm feeling it and I'm afraid of the reason of this. Mabilis kong iniligay ang palad sa mismong dibdib ko,its beating super wild.

Tinitigan ko siya ng mariin. "Stop looking at me!" Inis na tugon ko dito. Hindi man lang siya umiwas ng tingin bagkus ay mas lalo lang akong tinitigan ng mariin.

The beating of my heart became more wild and wild. Gusto kong maiyak sa sobrang bilis niyon,am I having a heart disease? Mabilis akong tumayo mula sa kinauupuan at mabilis na iniwan siya doon. Even he's out of my sight,the beating of my heart is still the same. Malakas at mabilis.

Mabilis kong pabagsak na isinarado ang pintuan ng kwarto ng makarating ako doon. Mula sa likod ng pintuan ay mabilis akong sumandal doon at ibinato ko ang ilang gamit na mahawakan ko. I then get my phone and started typing my mom's phone number. Ilang ring ay sinagot na din niya iyon.