Embracing Her Flaws

C-14

"Stanley," He called me using his soft voice. Ni hindi ako lumingon sa kaniya matapos ko siyang lampasan kanina pero talagang sumunod pa siya sa akin.

"What?! Pumunta ka na roon sa babaeng yun! Gustong gusto mo namang nakalambitin sayo yung babaeng yun!" Naiinis na bulyaw ko sa kaniya.

He was about to hold me but I smack his arm.

"Don't hold me!" Naiiyak na ani ko rito.

Emotions I'm feeling right now are not familiar. Nagtataas-baba ang dibdib ko sa galit at inis. Hindi ko alam pero naiiyak ako.

"She....kissed you," Nanghihinang sambit ko sa kaniya. Pumikit siya na para bang nagpipigil siya sakin. "Tapos you liked it,tama?Ni hindi mo siya pinigilan o tinulak man lang kase nagustuhan mo yung halik niya." I accused him.

The scenario I saw earlier kept playing in my head. The way he let that girl hold him,kiss him is so annoying.

"I did not like it," Umirap ako sa kawalan. Ano yun,hindi niya nagustuhan kase nasarapan lang siya?

Isn't not obvious to him what I'm feeling right now?

"Liar!Baka nga nagsex pa kayo," I accused him. I was about to talk loud and accused him more but he pinched me to the cabinet.

"Where did you get those words?" Malumanay ngunit galit niyang tanong sa akin. "Do you think I would do that to anyone?Do you think I will fcvk someone just because of lust?" Naroon ang galit sa tono at mata niya.

Naiinis ako kase mas nangingibabaw ang galit niya kesa sa inis at selos na nararamdaman ko.

"Who knows Roman. Wala namang kaso sa akin iyon,you can fcvk her even infront of me,wala akong pake-" Without letting me finished my words,he slammed his lips in mine.

Nagpumiglas ako,pilit na inaayawan ang bawat galaw ng labi niya. I am jealous at baka inaakala niya sa mga paganyan-ganyan niya makukuha niya ako! Pwes hindi!

"Roman,stop! Mag-iimpake pa ako,I don't have time for this." Mariin na ani ko sa kaniya.

He let out a sigh before removing his lips in mine. Para naman itong nahihiyang yumuko at pinaglaruan ang kamay ko.

I am jealous and that's the fact. Plus,I feel so insulted and disrespected earlier. Nabubwesit pa din ako sa Lean na yun,doesn't he feel insulted when Roman fixed my plates and not her? Ang kapal naman niya kapag ganun.

"H'wag ka na munang umuwi,don't be jealous na," He hugged me from behind while I fixed my clothes. "I don't like Lean as what you're thinking. Ampon siya ni tita kaya kailangan ko siyang pakisamahan ng maayos." He explained furthermore.

"E bakit gustong gusto niya yun para sayo?" Nag-iinarte pa ring tanong ko.

He shooked his head."Hindi ko alam but one thing is true,we did not do the thing. I just like her as a sister,wala ng mas lalalim pa." Umismid ako habang pinaglalaruan niya ang mga daliri ko.

"Still,you like her" I insisted.

"As a sister," He gritted his teeth.

"And what about me?" I did not intentionally said it but it naturally came out from my mouth.

Hindi siya nakasagot sa tanong ko kaya kinuha ko ang kamay kong pinaglalaruan niya at itinuloy ang ginagawa ko na inalintana niya.

"I.....like you," Pagkuway pag-amin nito saakin. I nodded, not satisfied with his answer.

"You don't believe me?" Sadness was evident in his voice,hindi ko siya sinagot ngunit ng maramdaman ko ang paghapit ng braso niya sa bewang ko ay nagitla ako.