Conduct Me (Lydia Tár X Reader)

11

After our amazing shower sex, i could not help the fact but think of my feelings towards her, i love her and i don't want to scare her off by confessing my feelings towards her, i don't want her to think im a weirdo who just falls for some one after just a few fuck sessions, i watched out the window wearing her blue button up shirt, i dried my hair with a towel she handed me and i kept on zoning out the window, i really don't want to loose her, i kept on repeating that sentence in my head

"What are you thinking about?"

I felt her arms wrap around my waist and pull me closer towards her body, she had a black button up shirt on and an oversized pair of linen pants on, she allowed her chin to rest on my shoulder allowing me to place my hand on the back of her head and place kisses on her cheek, she managed to unlock access to my neck and suck on my sensitive skin, causing me to moan

"Your perfect, you know that?"

She whispered into my neck with her husky like voice, my body was now covered with goosebumps and i could not help but admire her beautiful soft pale skin pressed against mine, her beautiful blond streaks that were now darker then usual cause of the shower we just had, i just want to tell her i love her, i really do, but i cant risk what we have.

"No one is perfect"

I chuckled, she turned me around to face her and carried me caressing my thighs carefully and allowing me to cup her face and kiss her forehead, she placed a kiss on my shoulder and sat down, allowing me to sit on her lap, spreading both my legs on each of her sides, the room was dark, the entire place was dark, just the moon and our skin reflecting its light, she allowed her soft fingers tips run over my lips, wich caused me to quiver against her touch

"You are perfect to me"

She let out, i tilted my head and slowly allowed a smile to appear on my face, a small blush creeped up to my cheeks, causing me to want to hide my face, so i quickly looked away but she allowed both her fingers to guide my face back to hers

"Don't hide yourself from me, i don't bite"

She chuckled amused, i chuckled with her and threw my head back to being overwhelmed by all these events happening all at once, i groaned and brought my face back to face hers, i cupped her face and looked into her eyes who were lost in mine, its as if (y/e/c) land has met the sea, she allowed her thumb stroke my thighs slowly, i then wrapped both my arms around her neck and hugged her, she took it by surprise due to the sudden interaction, but what can i say, i really wanted to hug her

"Can we stay like this?"

I whispered, she adjusted her hips and moved her legs up to the couch allowing her to stretch out her legs on the couch and leave me on top

"Yes, we can"

She brought her body down and i helped her to fix our position, i wrapped my self around her body, and let my head rest right on top of her chest, listening to her heart beat and its rhythm, her heart beat was slow, calm, steady, speaking to me in many different ways, not words but in different ways, i hummed to the sound of her heart against my ear

"Everything alright?"

She asked me

"Yeah"

I whispered against her chest, i felt a quiet chuckle escape her lips and she started stroking my hair, i slowly started closing my eyes and disappearing into deep slumber, in her arms, i never felt safer, i never felt warmer in anybody's embrace before, Lydia has an effect over me that no one has or will ever have, she is different, she is perfect in my eyes and i love every single detail about her