The angel's voice. Y/n X Larissa Weems secret love

Chapter 89- Realization

   Larissa took me back to Nevermore and as we walked up the stairs she said: "Will you come with me?" "I will take a shower at my dorm first, and change clothes, then I will come." I softly pressed myself into her side. "Okay then, just don't take too long." She wrapped her hand around my back as we walked up the stairs, but we quickly broke apart when I had to go to my dorm. 

   As I was walking I was trying to process what just had happened in Jericho, but then Ember showed up stopping me. "Hey! I was looking for you...Is everything ok? You seem off?" She noticed that I wasn't as energetic as I usually was. ''Oh, it is nothing.'' I didn't want to make a big deal out of it and instead wanted to keep it to myself but Ember's expression changed as soon as I said that. ''Tell me...maybe I can help somehow.'' Despite me not really liking Ember, I had a soft spot for her because she seemed nice enough to care. 

   ''Okay...'' I sighed, ''At Jericko I decided to see Alex, but the man, who almost raped me at that party, he grabbed me.'' I could feel myself slowly falling apart, as I told her this because I had to relive it once more, ''and he, he wanted to try to do it again and I was scared that he might hurt me or worse...kill me,'' My breaths got uneven and I had to dig my nails into my palms just so I wouldn't break in front of her, ''but, I-I got aw-away,'' I started stuttering, just like when I ran behind Larissa at Dr. Kinbott office, ''I ran into the building where I used to have my therapy sessions at, and there I found Lari-I mean Principal Weems, and yea...the sheriff took the man to the station.'' I was glad that I had finished reliving the moment, but it didn't seem that Ember was done listening. 

   ''Miss. Weems was there?'' She immediately asked. ''Yea, she took me back to Nevermore just now.'' I didn't really want to mention Larissa in the story because of how Ember felt toward her, but it slipped out and there was no way to take it back. Ember started playing with her pink hair and said: ''Really...and how did Principal Weems react to this?'' She was really curious about Larissa, more than me, which was a bit hurtful, so I decided to tease her a little, by telling her how Larissa cared about me, but in a more exaggerated way. 

   ''Well...Principal Weems felt really sorry for me, she gave me a really big and warm hug that she didn't let go of for a long while. She was trying to comfort me with really sweet words, and after that, she took me here. She is really sweet and loving and in fact, after I will go take a shower I will go talk to her about this situation.'' And then I realized that everything I said actually happened and will happen, and I didn't need to exaggerate. I even got butterflies just thinking about her love, but then I looked over at Ember and it didn't seem like she enjoyed what I said. ''Oh I-I have to go, do some stuff.'' She said and started walking away from me. ''Okay, bye.'' I turned around as well and walked away. 

   When I got to my dorm I hopped in the shower and while I was washing my hair and body, I was thinking about what happened to me in Jericho. ''He could have hurt me...His stubborn fingers ran down my jaw, ew.'' I felt sick about myself, and I wanted to scrub my body clean, ''He didn't do anything to me, then why am I feeling like this? What if he would have...k-kil..killed me? He is probably capable of that, and what if they let him go? There is no evidence against him if only they would find drugs on him.'' I sat down in the shower letting the water fall down on me, I started fearing for my life and understood how careless I always was about myself, and everything just crashed down on me at once and it was too much for me. 

   I tore myself apart in the shower with my own thoughts, and my emotions were fragile and I was walking on thin ice when it came down to my mental state. After the shower, I changed my clothes and was ready to go to Larissa. I really needed her right now, I needed her love and comfort. She made me feel safe and I wanted to tell her how I felt, but sugarcoat it so it wouldn't sound that bad and that she wouldn't send me to therapy again. 

   I grabbed my phone and left my dorm ready to snuggle Larissa and cry my heart out to her because right now it was a matter of time before I would snap and break into little pieces. ''Would she understand tho? What if I tell her everything? Would she actually send me to therapy?'' Many thoughts were racing through my mind based on the past, but I still decided to tell her the sugarcoated version, just in case. 

   I couldn't wait to fall into Larissa's arms and be cuddled by her so I even started going faster toward her office but was still ready to break any minute. When I finally approached her office, I softly opened up the door and quietly walked in, and my attention was immediately where drawn to Larissa who was sitting on the sofa, but she wasn't alone. 

   ''Ember?'' I asked when I saw her and then I saw that she was crying and Larissa was hugging her. ''What happened?'' I quietly asked as I approached them both and then Larissa lifted her eyes off Ember onto me. ''Y/n...something happened...''