I Want More

He Loves Me

"JJ? Are you okay?" She asked. "Not now." I whispered. I felt a panic attack coming and tied my hair back up. She noticed what I was doing and closed the stall door behind her.

You know how in movies a women always says "I can't be pregnant. I was careful." I could be pregnant. And I wasn't careful. I wasn't careful when I had sex with Will, I was just...

I don't know what I was doing. I just wanted to have sex with someone. And I did. Now I have to deal with the consequences of my actions. When I heard the door open, I hid the small test under my hand. She saw it when I tied up my hair.

"Oh." I heard her say.
"Yeah." I whispered.
"Positive?" I nodded.
"Congratulations." I nodded again.
"Who's the father?" She asked, sitting next to me.

I sat there as she pulled me into her side, like we were friends again. I missed being friends.

"Remember that cop a while back? In Louisiana?" She giggled and hugged me tighter. "You didn't." I nodded. "I thought the accent was annoying but good for you." She teased as she helped me stand. "Em, I can't do this alone."

I followed her to the sink to clean up. "JJ this is a good thing. You have always wanted to be a mom. It may not be the traditional way to do it but it's ok." I nodded and smiled.

"Jen, you can do it. I have seen you do amazing things and you can do this too. But don't you ever think you will be alone. I will be right there for whatever you need. Always."

"I'm pregnant." She grinned and gave me a real hug. Once I looked normal again, I walked to the bullpen and pulled the team together, they were closer than my real family.

Emily grabbed Pen from her office and joined the rest of us in the conference room. "I just wanted to say I'm pregnant." Penelope screamed and hugged me tighter than ever before, I couldn't breathe.

Morgan helped pry her off me and gave me one himself. "Congrats mama." He whispered. Spence looked a little awkward but I know he just thinks the whole thing is weird so I didn't push him.

Rossi kissed my forehead and put an arm around me, telling the team he would take us to dinner to celebrate.

It all happened so fast after that. I told Will and he wanted to try the long distance thing. I tried to tell him he didn't need to have a relationship with me to be apart of it all, but he was sweet.

Emily grew distant, I don't know why. I tried to hang out with her like normal but she was always 'busy' or 'had plans.' Once I had Penelope plan a girls night then cancel, leaving us alone. But Emily canceled too.

Eventually I had given up wanting to be with her, I had to, but I never stopped loving her. Will wanted me and she never did. So I dated him.

He was sweet, respectful, caring. Everything I wanted. I let him move in after a couple months and after Henry was born we talked about marriage.

He loved me and I loved him. It made sense that marriage would be next in our relationship. It was easy planning our lives together when Emily was 'dead.' I begged Hotch to have someone else see her in Paris, but he insisted.