Dear Nick,
I broke up with my girlfriend today. I feel horrible, but I just don't love her. I never really did is the sad thing. I was so focused on doing what makes other people happy that I never really let myself be happy. I didn't eat today. I'm trying to lose weight. I want to look good for you. I want you to like me back. I cried a lot after I broke up with her, I feel so bad. I just couldn't lead her on. Everyone hates me now. Maybe I should have stayed with her and let her break up with me. I couldn't calm myself down. She was so upset. I tried to find you, but I couldn't. Kate was gone as well. Ian told me to breathe, but I needed YOU. I needed your hug. You gave me it, but it wasn't like the other ones. People were watching and you seemed tense. I feel like shit. Like my whole world is coming to an end, and you are so far away. You are my world, and you have gone away. I'm left in this empty darkness of space. There are no stars or planets. When you leave, you take them all with you. When you are with me, that little flicker of hope begins to shine. I know I say this a lot, but I need you. I need your hugs. Fuck, I'm crying again... What is wrong with me Nick? All I ever do is fuck up people's lives. All I ever do is screw things up. Now everyone hates me and Cam is upset. Cam will get over me though, I'm not much to cry over. The dark void is swallowing me whole.
-Sam
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Dear Nick
Teen FictionA teenager's letters to a boy who made all the pain disappear. If triggered easily, do not read.
