Dear Nick,
I hate when your mind is telling you to stop loving someone, but your heart can't let go. People don't get it. When I say I have a crush on you, I mean I have feeling for you. When I say I miss you, I mean I hate not seeing you. People judge me for saying how I feel, but they forget how it feels to like someone. I hate feeling this way. I hate how vulnerable I feel. I miss you. I miss you so much. I don't like feeling this way, because I know I don't mean anything to you. I'll never be what you dreamed of. I would love to have just a chance with you. Just a chance to show you. Show you how much you mean to me. A chance to spoil you, give you love, be your best friend. That's all I want, but I get it. You don't always get what you want. Every day, I think about texting you first. But then I think, "If you really wanted to talk to me, you'd text me first." I want to be the reason you look down at your phone and smile. Then walk into a pole. I want to text you all the time and see how you're doing, but I know I can't because deep down I know it won't change anything. It sucks because I thought things were going so well, but then one day came and everything changed and now I'm up at 2 am wondering how and why everything went wrong and what I did. Why I wasn't good enough for you. I find myself looking at old texts and pictures and I remember how happy I was and how happy we were. And all I can do is question how I ended up here, without you. The saddest part about it all is that I still love you.
-Sam
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Dear Nick
Roman pour AdolescentsA teenager's letters to a boy who made all the pain disappear. If triggered easily, do not read.
