June March stood on a doorstep she never imagined herself standing on, her stomach in knots and her palms sweaty as she contemplated what she was about to do. This was another one of those situations where she wasn't too sure about what she was doing, but she knew it felt wrong. However she felt like she had no option but to start here, the series of bad ideas in her head about this Hardy thing leading her to this exact conclusion. If she could forgive Rafe for all the things he had done, then she needed to apply that to everyone else. The difference between Rafe Cameron and Kiara Carrera was that Rafe had never pretended to be anything that he wasn't. Kie had made her think she was her friend, had tried to wedge her way mean girl style into her relationship and ruin it. That was why June wasn't so sure if this was the best idea. The wound was still felt rather fresh, but she was here regardless, meaning there was no going back now.
June lifted her finger to the doorbell and pushed the button, a muffled chiming noise coming from the inside. She stared down at her hands in nervousness as she tried to gather up what she wanted to say, so that she had some idea of where she could lead this thing. Her breaths stopped when she looked back up and Kie was opening the door, the glass panels showcasing her confusion already.
The door opened and June looked at Kie with meaningful eyes, trying her hardest to feel something, anything other than absolutely nothing when she looked at her. She came up short.
"June? Is everything alright?" June snapped out of her short trance, the girls voice pulling her back to reality. June nodded, letting out a short breath and looking at the confused girl with a questioning look.
"Yeah no, everything is fine. I just...do you have a minute to—to talk?" Kiaras confused look only deepened, she had no idea what June would be doing here, what she would want to talk about. As far as Kie was concerned they weren't friends and they didn't like each other, and that was that. But when she looked at the March girl today she could hardly see the girl she hated, she saw someone completely different.
"Uh...sure. Yeah." Kie closed the door behind her, gesturing towards the porch steps and June quickly taking a seat on them. Kie sat awkwardly beside her and couldn't draw her eyes from the girl, biting the inside of her cheek as she wondered what she could possibly be here for. They sat in silence as June gathered her words, trying to figure out what she could say to start this conversation. She closed her eyes and imagined her brother and Zach, this giving her the courage to speak.
"I'm tired of holding this grudge against you." Kies lips pursed at Junes straightforwardness, her arms immediately crossing over her chest as the March girl looked over at her. "I'm tired of being in a room with you and hating you and I'm tired of pretending we weren't friends. We were. And I miss that. And I hate hating you."
Kie was startled by her honesty, not only with her words but with the look in her eyes. There were tears pooling in them for just a moment, and Kie felt her heart rip in half as her old friend looked at her with a pleading expression. But she could tell she wasn't done, so she let her keep going.
"It's very hard for me to be here admitting this to you but I had to because I stay up all night thinking about how much your betrayal hurt me, how much I tried with you. And I do blame you for me and JJ breaking up. Yeah, I do. And maybe it was my fault that I sat back and watched it all happen and I know you see me as the bad guy on your side but I never wanted to stop you and him from being friends. I didn't want to be that girl that came between you because you knew him better and longer...and I didn't want to swoop in and ruin that because I respect your friendship. Maybe I should have, I don't know. It doesn't matter now." June sniffled and Kie looked down at her knees, feeling a stab of guilt at what she had said. She wondered how she could come here on a random day and be so honest and so arrogant, saying that she should've come between them. And then she realized that she hadn't, which made her severely reassess the situation. "But you took advantage of that freedom. You went behind my back and you stole him away from me in some ways and then even after all of that I still tried with you. And you were the one who told me I was a Pogue. You were the one who said that to me when we were drunk in the van. And one of the rules of being a Pogue is no Pogue left behind. And then in Barbados you did something so much worse than loving my boyfriend, you bargained my life. And the worst part is that you never even apologized for it. I've forgiven you for something you never even apologized for."
June had a hard look on her face as she bared her soul, feeling so much unintentional relief in knowing that she was saying all of this to Kies face. The Carrera girl had her own pool of tears as she listened, and June hoped from the depths of her heart that she would just say those two words, that she would just say she was sorry. It was trivial to think that maybe that was the key to it all, that she would just let go completely if all Kiara would do is apologize, but at this point it was in Junes best interest to get the end goal here that she needed. And Kie saying she's sorry was something she truly needed. It would be the first step in ehr not absolutely despising her. The Carrera girl had a pained look on her face as she soaked in everything she had said, now wanting to say something of her own. June felt a buildup as she opened her mouth to speak and it felt like months and months worth of pain would soon be pushed through with just two words.
"I'm sorry." Kiara said, and June could tell she meant it. The March girl let the words soak into her skin and her bones and right into her very core, feeling the heaviest weight yet rise from her shoulders. There was a ghost of a smile on her face as she nodded, looking down at the ground in front of her and then back to Kie. She sucked in a breath and felt a little more than she had bargained for, this moment feeling very real despite the fake reason she had shown up. She hadn't come to forgive her at all, only to give the impression she had...but something sparked deep down in her, snd June was moved to speak again.
"I'm sorry too. And I forgive you. And I really—" Junes voice broke as she said it, Kie feeling positively towards June for the first time in so long. "—really miss you."
"I miss you too." Kie leaned over, pulling June into her arms and surprising the March girl. June felt the nothingness from earlier fade away and she wrapped her arms around Kie, closing her eyes as she savored the hug. It was like her heart was lighter than it had been before, and a terrible cloud in her brain had rolled away, leaving a clear sky in the part that always worried about this relationship. June was perplexed by how much this actually seemed to help her, resentment melting from her as she bruised her face into the girls shoulder. She let out a surprised chuckle at the fact that she could actually feel the forgiveness starting to process, and maybe faking it till you make it was the key to this all along. June pulled back and wiped at her face, a smile on her lips as they looked at each other. There was a laugh that they shared when they realized they were both crying, June getting struck with an idea just as she looked away.
"Wow...okay well. Listen, I've gotta go do some stuff but um...I want to call you tonight. Maybe catch up okay?"
"Okay—um actually...there's a bonfire tonight out on the beach. Maybe...maybe you can come with us?" The us is what threw June off, the cloudiness in her brain returning as she looked at Kie. However she thought about it for a moment and that put it into perspective, June nodding her head when she realized just how advantageous this bonfire could be...everyone would be in the same place. Killing two birds with one stone by making up with the group and with....JJ.
"Bonfire on the beach sounds good. I'll see you there."
"I'll pick you up?" June narrowed her eyes at Kie but quickly nodded, feeling like it was a good opportunity for her to try and talk some more things out with her.
"7:00?" Kie smiled up at her with a hopeful look, June waiting for her confirmation. She nodded and June nodded back, starting off towards her car. The further she got away from the girl the more heavy she felt again, knowing now that she would have to come up with some perfect plan to get the group back together.
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Next chapter boutta be......idk how to explain it
