Books and a bad boy

Chapter 20

I awoke with my tee over my face and my hair in a mess. What day was it? I was not a morning person at all. I looked at my phone screen, oh fuck 8:00, classes start in twenty minutes. I flew about my room and got ready, I shoved my hair into a messy bun and threw on mom jeans and a band tee. I ran out of my room and down my stairs, I struggled to open my jeep door, dropping my keys. I let out a curse and finally opened it before stumbling in. "Ana? What are you doing?" I looked at Cassie, soaked in sweat and coming from her morning run, "uhh," she burst out laughing, "it's Saturday."

I dropped my keys and sighed, "fuck," i whispered before i dropped my head on the steering wheel. She continued laughing, "i mean i'm still mad at you but that's really funny!" I moved my head and the horn went off, i shot up. I groaned and opened my door before hopping out. "I'm going back to bed," i trudged the rest of the way back to my room, before falling face first on my bed. I started removing my pants with my face still buried in the sheets, you guys know that struggle. "Uh Ana?" I froze, and prayed it wasn't him, i slowly turned my face and he was in the door way, scratching the back of his neck, my face turned bright red as i realized he saw me attempting to take off my pants. It was halfway down and my underwear was very much exposed. I groaned and closed my eyes, "i heard you rushing about so i thought i'd see if everything was okay," i got up with my pants still halfway down, i ran my hands through my hair, "yeah, yeah i just thought it was Saturday." I could see him attempt to not laugh. I sighed, "go ahead." He burst out laughing.

I fell back down and stared at the ceiling, i heard the door close and felt the bed weigh down. "That's what happens when you're hungover," "not now." He sighed, a lot of sighing i realize, "you can't make out with a random guy and expect me not to talk about it."

"Right cause you soo care who i'm with," "i sure fucking do." I turned to face him, the blue in his eyes twinkled, "why?" i asked. He kissed me and pulled away, my face turned red, he kissed me again and tangled his hand in my hair. I did not know what was happening, i was confused. His hand slid around my waist and he pulled me on top of him, we made out wildly for a couple minutes before he pulled away. "Does that answer?"

"No, quite frankly i'm more confused." "You're fucking adorable Ana," i looked at him in exasperation, he laughed, "do i have to spell it out in alphabet soup for you?" I rolled off him and became aware that my pants were still halfway down, "what the fuck?" i started laughing. He looked at me like i was crazy, i laughed harder and i couldn't stop. I plopped back down on my bed and pulled my pants off, i felt his stare on me. I looked down at my underwear, mehh they weren't bad. "Not my best pair," he laughed, "I've seen worse." "Yup, bet you've seen a lot." Awkward silence.

"I can leave," "do whatever you want to bud." "Are you mad at me?"

"Nope, just the situations you put me in." He didn't say anything, i figured i didn't have to explain. "I'm bad for you Ana, that's why i wanted to stay away."

"Oh fuck you Kells, this isn't twilight and even in twilight they ended the fuck up together with some half breed baby." I looked over at him, he looked pained, "but you deserve so much better, i like you so much i'm willing to stay away and that never happens."

"You want a cookie?" I couldn't help it i was in no mood for his bullshit, being hung over puts a limit on you, i could feel him getting angry. "Can you be serious?"

"No i wanna be Potter," "fuck Ana!!" he stormed out the room and slammed the door. I scoffed, that was a really good joke. I closed my eyes and drifted off to sleep.  I woke up sweating, nightmares will do that to you, i looked at the time, it was ten at night, what the fuck? I slept that long?  I got up suddenly aware of a dramatic hunger striking me. I peered outside and saw no one, which was creepy cause after nightmares, you want to see people. I put ramen into the microwave and then scarfed it down. I brushed my teeth and changed into my pjs, but still no one showed up. I rapped on Cassie's door, no answer. I rapped on Kells' door, and a pretty brunette answered, she looked sleepy. "Oh, sorry Kells in?" She pushed the door and exposed Kells shirtless snoring. I rolled my eyes and stalked back to my own room. I was so pissed, but the night's still young i smirked.

At 11:00 i got into my jeep, at 11:05 i got a tattoo, at 11:30 i pierced  my ears all the way up the lobe and by 12:00 i was high on cheap wine and making my way home, at 12:10 i was banging on Kells' door, this time he answered, the girl was gone, "Ana what the fuck?"

"No ssh, listen, i'm a pretty cool person, pretty cool," i wobbled a little, "but you make me seem pathethic, and i don't appreciate the voodoo magic bullshit you have on me. It's like i'm addicted to you, you know?" Tears started running down my face, why the fuck was i crying?

My face felt like it was melting, "it's like this passion, this fire, this high, better than drugs!" I made a dramatic gesture, "and you fucked me over, you fucked me over after i got attached and that's some real fucking over."

He stared at me with his jaw clenched, i ran my hand over my face and through my hair. "Stop that, stop clenching your jaw, it turns me on." He stepped forward, i backed up, "no! I don't want you, you just had sex with some girl, you're disgusting!" I slurred on disgusting. He caught me in his hold and i struggled, he grabbed me tighter and embraced me, he smelt like soap and aftershave. I stopped fighting and went limp, cause i couldn't fight him, he had me. I started crying more, he didn't say anything, he just embraced me. Eventually i calmed down and he wiped my eyes. He took me to his room and closed the door, he took off my clothes and pulled his tee on me, all the while i was watching him drunkenly, "you don't say much." "I say a lot."

"Not tonight," "cause you're high" "And that's exactly why! I'm telling you everything i'm afraid to say, it's beautiful!" "No it's not!! You drove home drunk Ana, you could've crashed and died, did you take your meds!!?" "Don't blame this on my disorder!"

"Then what is it?!" We were yelling, i was surprised Cassie didn't interrupt. "A broken heart," i stuck my chin in the air and started to march off. He caught my wrist and pulled me in again, he buried his nose in my hair, "my dramatic girl." My heart skipped, he pulled me onto the bed with him and wrapped the sheet around me, he kissed my lips and then closed his eyes. I stared around the room a bit, feeling safe before i was knocked out too.