Books and a bad boy

Chapter 16

Curling, my toes were curling, pleasure swept through every inch of me, i was his, he was mine, he raised up and smiled at me. I jumped up when my alarm went off. Well that dream was awkward, i got up and headed straight to the shower, i opened the door and dropped my shampoo, he turned to me brushing his teeth and smiled, colgate smeared all over his mouth, he held up his finger indicating one second, i used that second to pick up my shampoo and redeem myself. I tapped my foot while he rinsed his mouth. "All yours" he said when he was done, he walked out wrapped in a towel and i carefully moved to the side when he came out, the dream still fresh in my mind.

"What are you doing here?" My voice sounded raspy, "well my aunt kicked me out, so Cassie offered me a stay here, given that i help out of course," he smirked. I was shocked, Cassie never seemed to like him. He searched my face, "i'm not a bad guy and she knows that." I looked at him and took him in, his long hair was damp and droplets ran down the tattoos on his skin, i gulped and blushed. I avoided eye contact and headed into the bathroom. I stared at myself in the mirror, i looked tired, and ugly, someone whispered, i froze, "who's there?" I heard a giggle and turned to open the door. It was locked, did i take my meds? Fuck.

If you weren't so obsessed with being normal, you'd take your meds, he'll never love you if you're crazy. He can never settle for that.

I screamed and punched the mirror, breaking it, my hand started bleeding and i felt alive. I laughed and then sank down on the floor, i sighed. How does it feel to go from normal to bat shit crazy all at once?

It's like sleeping and then waking up, you expect it, but it never feels normal, especially when you can't drag yourself out the bed, i couldn't drag myself out of my mind, the voices surrounded me, i sobbed on the floor, sure i was caking blood in my hair. The voice was still there, she was right, i was obsessed with being normal. I didn't want to take my meds, it reminded me. Maybe it wasn't more a reminder but acceptance, i hadn't accepted i was a physcho.

I got up and walked to the tub and turned on the water, i looked at my bloody hands, i didn't want to live like this, how could i live like this? What sort of future did i have? What, forgetting to take my meds then murdering my kids out of pure adrenaline? I washed my hands and watched the water go bloody, i really bruised my hand, i winced. I watched it swirl around the tub, and plugged it so it could full. I eased myself inside and closed my eyes. It was only then i realized my feet were bleeding too from walking on the glass, the water became bloodier, and i sobbed more.

He found me, naked, in a bloody tub. "Fuck Anna! What happened!?" He grabbed the towel and made to lift me out, "i'm naked," i said weakly, think i lost too much blood. He growled and lifted me out, and wrapped me, i blinked on the floor and realized the water was everywhere, the tub overflowed. "I'm sorry," i coughed, his jaw was clenched as he rushed out with me bridal style. I heard someone scream, pretty sure it was Cassie, "what the fuck?!"

"She needs to go to the hospital, she lost too much blood," i felt guilty for putting them through this, they didn't ask for this, "just leave me to die." He didn't say anything but wiped me as best he could and threw on some clothes on me, he lifted me again and hurried outside to the car, i was too weak to protest and felt my eyes closing. "Stay awake baby, got to stay awake."

He called me baby, i smiled and closed my eyes, i heard him mutter fuck, before slamming the brakes, i woke up and lurched forward. He jumped up and picked me up slamming the car door. I was confused, how'd the hospital get so close. I didn't get to find out cause i blacked out.

I woke up and blinked at the white ceiling, i looked around and saw Kells and Cassie asleep in the chairs, the guilt returned. He shuffled and woke up, he jumped when he saw me awake, "Anna? Oh thank god! When you come out of here, i'm gonna kill you."

"Then why pay the bill?" He smiled, and dragged his chair closer, he bent down and kissed my forehead, "what happened in the bathroom?"

"I don't wanna," the nurse walked in, "Anna?" She smiled, doctor will be here in a minute, "drink this," she held my head and made me swallow a liquid. The doctor walked in and i was shocked at how young he was, and hot. He smiled at me, "well Anna, good news, you'll be out of here today, bad news, you'll be badly bruised for a while, you lost a lot of blood, but we fixed it, however," he looked at Kells, "see to it, she eats when she leaves."

He nodded, "right that's all, you're free to go." They said nothing on the way home, it wasn't until we were home, Cassie embraced me, "you scared the shit out of me! I could kill you!" I looked at Kells, "get in line."

Kells placed a steaming box of pizza in front of me, "eat."

"The whole thing?" I whined, "if you can." He pulled Cassie aside, and talked to her, she nodded, "i have work, i'll see you later, " she kissed my cheek and left. I chewed slowly, then swallowed, tastes good. "What'd you tell her?"

He shook his head, "eat!" "Okay, okay sheesh." I finished like three slices till i pushed the box away, "is your stomach crying?" I nodded and he seemed satisfied. He wiped my mouth and pulled the box to him, and started eating.

I nervously wrapped my hair round my finger and watched him, he closed his eyes and revelled in the bite. He opened it and his blue eyes caught mine.

"I really like pizza," he smirked. I laughed. When he finished eating, he sat down opposite me, "you ready to tell me what happened?" I was dreading this.

"Do i have to?" "Anna, you're one of my best friends i can't-" I cut him off, "i'm tired, and i have homework, i'll talk to you later." He didn't stop me when i walked off, he didn't hold me in his arms and kiss me, he didn't tell me he was wrong and he needed me, and why should he, "i was one of his bestfriends."

Nothing more, i sighed, that cut deeper than the broken glass.