Books and a bad boy

Chapter 14

I think you know when you're insane, i think you look in the mirror and see it in your eyes, i held the scissors firmly, with my hair in the other hand. He loves my hair, i wasn't doing it for him, i was doing it to be free, "yes." 

I snipped it off and watched it fall to the ground, it was above my shoulders now, i smirked, i liked it, the edges stuck out and contrasted with my black eyeliner, how ironic, since i grew up with pink frills and blue eyeshadow. Cassie burst into the bathroom on the phone, her jaw dropped and so did her phone, "what did you do?!" "I cut my hair." "But, your hair was beautiful, it was.. what, i don't what?"

I laughed, she picked up her phone and cut off the call. "Did you take your meds Ana?" 

"Yes, well i think so, i feel fine," "So this was a spontaneous, normal thing?" 

"Totally." I grinned, she sighed "come on," she dragged  me by the arm, she picked up her keys and dragged me out the door all the way to the jeep. We got in and she started driving, watching me from the corner of her eyes. I didn't ask where we were going, I looked out the window and fussed with my hoodie sleeves. We pulled up in front the salon and jumped out. My converse splashed in  a puddle, hm when did it rain? She held me by my arm again and dragged me into the salon. We sat in the waiting room and the owner came out with a cup of coffee, she almost spilled her coffee upon seeing me. "What happened here?" 

"Spontaneous haircut," said Cassie, "ah." She studied me, "Louis will take care of you." We got up and followed her inside,  gay guy, i'm guessing Louis, called me to his chair, "what happened here boo?" 

"Um, freedom?" He studied it and his face brightened, i can fix this, he began cutting and snipping and i closed my eyes, "ta da!" 

I peeked and then opened my eyes fully, i almost didn't reongnize myself, my whole life consisted of long hair, but this was new, he levelled the edges so it looked like  cool bob. "Do you want some streaks?" 

"Sure." He began working again, 1 salon hour later, i came out with a bob, and red streaks, "You look so tumblr Ana." I laughed and stepped in the jeep. 

We drove back to the apartment, and i noticed Eric outside,  i walked up to him and his eyes widened, "where's all your beautiful hair?" 

I shrugged "it'll grow back." Cassie studied us and walked away, then turned back and winked. I rolled my eyes, "i wanna talk about, last night." 

"Sorry bout that, he had the wrong apatment." He stared at me like i was crazy and i giggled, cause i was. 

"I really like you Ana, can we try again?" I thought about it for a while, Kells usually dissapears for a while whenever i drop the L bomb, so "i guess so." 

He beamed, "i'll pick you up around 7:00, if thats okay?" "will do."

I went upstairs "sooo i got a date." Cassie smirked, "i saw, hes kinda hot." 

I shrugged "he's okay." "You don't really like this guy do you?" "Maybe i'll get to like him." 

She jumped up, "what are you gonna wear?" 

"A dress?" "Go on." "With sneakerss" She rolled her eyes, "my god Ana,no you're borrowing my favourite heels."

10 dresses later and Cassie pulling out her hair, i was ready, he showed up on time and took me by the arm, "you look gorgeous." 

I smirked, i knew it, i wished Kells could see me. 

They say be careful what you wish for, i watched Eric holding his nose with his head back, to stop the bleeding. I felt guilty, "i'm sorry Eric, i don't know why he keeps doing this."

"Guess we can't have a relationship then huh?" 

I smiled, "we can, if i put a restraining order on him, but eventually even that goes away." "Its my fault,i don't know why i thought i could fight him." 

"No, everyone can have hopes," I laughed, he chuckled, he picked up his jacket and got up,i gave him a tissue to hold his nose, and he smiled and walked out. "See you later Ana, despite this i almost had fun." I cringed "bye Eric." 

I sighed and took off my hairtie and tied up my hair, i walked o my bedroom and opened my door, he was still there. Duh where were you expecting him to be.

His hands were clasped and he bowed his head. "Asking for forgiveness?" He looked up "i don't know what got into me." "Its called jealousy, which i don't know why you are, cause you run away everything i say i love you." 

He groaned "it just scares me, thats all." "You need to get your shit together!" He seemed shocked at my out burst. 

"Eric is a really nice guy and i want to keep seeing him, which i cant do if you're going to behave like a shit head!" He got up and towered over me, i gulped, he was a little intimidating, i blew out a breath and faced him. "Yes you're a shit head!! I started beating his chest and he struggled not to laugh which made me more angry!" 

He held my arms and leaned down, i moved my head and he kissed my cheek and moved to my neck, i turned my face, "don't kiss me, you baffoon!" He bit my lip, and i kept muttering until he stuck his tongue in my mouth, my words drowned out and i gave into the kiss. I wanted his lips everywhere. He suddenly broke away, "why did you cut your hair?" 

"Cause its my hair." "Don't be a smart ass with me! Cause i'll fuck it out of you." My cheeks flushed bright red, but he looked serious. "I don't know it was sort of spontaneous." 

"I loved your hair." "I know." "Did you cut it as revenge?" 

"Why does this matter?" "I need to know." "Yes kind of, but i had wanted to." He studied me and ran his fingers down my cheek. "You use sex as a weapon." 

He stopped and stared at me "What?" "That's your weapon, its how you show control and exort power." 

He laughed "Woman, what? You really are crazy." I kept my face serious, "no just observant, its how you keep everyone under your spell, sexual appeal,so without your dick, you'd just be stupid and powerless." He got angry and pushed me away "fine, i just won't use it on you then." 

My voice softened, "i never said i didn't want you to, i was merely stating facts." He rolled his eyes, kissed me and walked out the room. "Where are you going?"
"To excercise my sexual appeal." He winked, i knew he probably meant it as a joke, but i also knew he didn't, and that also kind of broke me.