Hydra's Murderer

Haunting me part 2

I wake up in a cell, my hands cuffed and my powers glitching. I deserve to be here, I'm a murderer, a monster. I get out of the bed and run to the corner of the room, crying and shaking. About 45 seconds later someone opens the door to my cell and runs in towards me
"Alice calm, calm down you are OK, calm down" I hear Bucky's voice
"S-stay back" I say whilst twitching and going from visible to invisible
"No, no come on calm down" he carries on
"I s-said s-stay back o-or I'll h-hurt you" I say
Suddenly he grabs my face and kisses me passionately.

"You won't hurt anyone again, not me not Bruce. No one" he says quietly
"My head hurts" I say quietly, sobbing
"I know, it'll go soon" he comforts me
"I-I killed Tony, I killed..." I trail off
"Alice who was it?" He asks
"I-I killed my parents" I whisper
"No you didn't! It did, you are nice, and kind and innocent and the best person ever" he says
"No I'm not. I killed people" I reply
"And so did I, technically. But just remember I know you didn't want to kill those people, and we will make the others understand" he says

"No, we are not making them understand- I'm a murderer and a freak. A monster. A phsycopath that can kill people, has killed people" I shout "they will never forgive me Bucky! Stop giving me false hope, all I am is an unloved freak that everyone feels sorry for!" I am trying so hard to hold back tears, and so is Bucky
"You cant say you are an unloved freak to me! I love you, I always have and always will" Bucky says
"Look at me James!" I grab my tail "I'm a freak, I was never like this until I became a killer. I'm a freak and no one will ever understand what I've been through- what I'm going through" I carry on shouting
"Then tell us what you are going through! What you are feeling! The only way we can help you is if you tell us what is going on!" He shouts
I slump to the floor and burst into tears.

"Alice... Doll I'm sorry I didn't mean to shout at you like that" he says softly and walks over to me
"Its not that Buck" I whisper through tears
"Then what is it doll face? Come on you can talk to me" Bucky says
"My head hurts, I'm remembering everything all at once and I hate watching myself just kill so many people over and over again, I remember all the pain that Hydra put me through- the experiments, the mind wipes, the torture and training. It's like nothing good has happened in my life and I was just born to be a murderer" I clutch my head then hiss in pain quickly. Bucky pulls my hands away and he cups my face with his hands.

"You are a good person doll, you just haven't got the chance to take that. I'm offering you this chance right now. Trust me it will be hard and scary but I promise you we will get through this, and you can live the life you have always wanted" Bucky says softly. I smile and lean my head on his chest
"I love you Buck" I say
"I love you to. So much Doll" he replies

"C-can you stay with me?" I ask
"Hows about you stay with me? We can go to my room and-" he starts
"No, no I might hurt somebody. What, what if Winter comes and I hurt somebody? I cant leave this cell" I say, my body goes tense
"Doll, listen to me. You are never going to get over your fear if you lock yourself in here for God knows how long. And besides Winter is gone" he stands up and holds out his hand
"I can still feel it, she is still there. I still know that I can kill people easily, I still know that I would do it. I cant leave. I'm sorry, you can leave me in here, it'll be safer" I say
"Look, Alice. I understand what you are saying, but there has been so many times Winter has nearly gotten through, but guess what? I fought him off and I was okay, so you are coming with me regardless, come on" he said and pulled me up by the waist. I was dizzy for a moment and fell to the side slightly, Bucky caught me and put his metal arm round me. We walked to his room in silence.