I tend to post things when most people are probably asleep. I'd probably remove this, I'm not sure. The past year has been great for me and the past months have been nothing but pure bliss.
Thank you for all the support and to all of you who still have this story on their lists. Considering the time that you all wasted because of this story, the least I could do is to finish it. I will not promise anything but I'll do my best to give you all the ending that you wish for.
I'm losing my grip on things that I want to hold on to. I want to try and find what I have been looking for all my life. I sometimes feel like home whenever I'm in the arms of the person I love the most. But there are times that I feel so alone, rejected, neglected, sad, hopeless and unbearable. To be honest, I don't know if I ever wanted to go on like this.
There are days that I feel like I could depend upon a person and they will have my back so I know I could do it. There are days that I know I can only depend on myself. But these past few days, I'm not sure where I stand. There are times that I know I could open up to someone and bare my soul. There are times that I feel like if I say another word to them, they might hate me for it. Was I wrong to assume and claim that I am finally able to find someone who will and can understand me? I want to live. To live in life where I could be happy. Where I could be with the people I love.
But now, I feel like I have been too giving. Too caring and too much. I failed to see the things that I should have seen. I failed to notice things that I should have noticed a long time ago. I'm caught between doing things that I want to do and doing things just because I have to do it.
I feel like, no matter how I give. No matter how much I give, people still want more from me. And now, I feel like a burden to everyone when all I ever did was my best to give them whatever they want.
And it's exhausting. I'm tired and I don't know if I will ever get the rest that I deserve.
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