My Professor's Affair

Chapter 25

Victoria

"Let's start with your family." I say as I scribbled my pen and made a note.

I study her appearance as she shifts on the couch and leaned back again. She looks at me and shrugged her shoulders.

"Can we not talk about that? I know you've already know that." She says with a quip.

I raised my eyebrow, "And I thought we are trying here."

"Okay."

"I'm gonna start once again. Tell me about yourself and your family." I say as I look at her.

"Hmmm, I'm 18 years old. My parents- well... you heard of them. I love them so much." She says with a smile.

"But not enough to make you feel you deserve to live?". I say and she frowns at me.

"I thought we're on the basics here Professor." She says to me with an eyeroll.

"We both know what I'm here for Miss Hawthorne." I say even though on most of my patients, I usually use the first name basis for them to trust me. But this wasn't the case with Diana.

"Of course. Well... I don't know... Maybe I just feel all too much at the same time." She says and I wrote it right away.

"What do you feel at this moment?".

"I feel---I feel excited? Embarassed? Flushed? Sad? I don't really know." She says as she looks at me with that uncertainty.

"Why would you feel it like that? Excited?".

"I don't really know. It just feel like my heart is thundering out in my chest. My hands are unstable. I feel the heat and the chill at the same time." She says.

"Okay. Would it help if you lay down?". I ask and she nods profusely. I waited for her to lay and the couch with her feet pointing towards me. "Better?".

"Yeah. But if I go on like this, I might fall asleep."

"It's okay. We'll just keep talking." I say as I scibbled another word.

"So let's get back to what you're feeling. Why would you feel embarassed?".

"It's because I hated you. I loathe your existence, and now, you're helping me." She says accompanied with a shrug.

"We established that earlier."

"I know but--- it just kinda embarassing."

"We will work on that. How about flushed?". I say while trying to ignore the same feeling inside me. But I can't really say if I loathe her. When she said she hated my existence I feel the urge and remembered those times that she stood up to me and defied my words.

"It was from the heat I think."

"Okay. How about sadness? This is the most common feeling a person feels when they are not content with their life." I say as I wrote down some phrases.

"No man can ever be content enough." She says.

"Why would you feel sad today?".

"I know I have disappointed my mum again. And I--- it was a blur of the moment when the accident happened. One minute, I was gearing up my motorcycle, I saw this car on my left rearview and I slowed down. Then I saw that black corvette speeding up to us. I shift and I know the person driving the corvette was kinda in a hurry. When I saw that the corvette was speeding up and it almost swept me, I struggled with my control because I swerved away. I don't know what happened but in a flash-- I saw the corvette hitting the car and they get in collision and they are still running, I tried to speed up to sway away from the collision. The next thing I knew, I was flying." She says.