Story of a girl who wanted EVERYTHING

Chapter 36

When I opened my eyes in the morning, I was alone in the bed... but only because Deán had already got our breakfast and he hurried to the table to take the trays down. I supposed the thing that woke me up was the knock from the servant, but I wasn't sure.

- Deán... - I murmured as I lifted my head up a little to have a good look on him. He heard me and turned towards me.

- Good morning! – his face was shining, dammit. It was totally obvious that he had been through something special... I was about to tease the heck out from him that day. I promised myself that.

- Good morning, my dear master – I smiled as I sat up to stretch my arms... as the cover fell off of my upper body, he froze down. Oh, gods. Must. Tease. Him. All. Day.

- You ready for breakfast? – he asked while he blushed.

- I'm hungry for a lot of things – I grinned mischievously, and I totally made him embarrassed on a whole new level. But I held back laughing because I was afraid that he would take it seriously. I found his shirt beside the bed, on the ground, and I decided to take it on. I was too lazy to find my own clothes.

While I was walking over to the table... I heard something. But before the first words, my hands were already pressed onto my ears while I cried out.

- Not now, not now, not now... - I asked miserably. I didn't want to fuck my mood up... I was an inch from being happy. Just once in my life... I wanted to enjoy something peacefully.

- Winnie – Deán hurried over to me, hoping that he could draw my attention away.

- It's okay – I said two second later... the voices stayed silent.

- Not another attack or something, right? – he asked.

- No. I suppose it was just a simple divination, but I don't care. I don't want to care now. I want to taste those waffles – I looked at them longingly.

- Talk to me first. Please – he had his hands on my upper arms, pulling me a little closer to himself. Oh. I promised I'd talk about myself a little in the morning. Uhh. How I hated this... but being that close to him, to that warmness... it was enough to calm me down and stop me from searching for excuses.

- All righty – I nodded uncomfortably.

- Did you enjoy it? – he asked and I sighed. Obviously, he was an overachiever. He was that in every aspect of his life, it wasn't a miracle that he wanted the best in the bed too.

- I totally enjoyed it, believe me. Now I'll be a little bit too blunt, what do you say? Those waffles look too good, I don't want to waste time with sugarcoating things... So, the case is, yeah, I could have enjoyed it a billion times better, but it's not your fault. There is something wrong with me. Can't be fucked good enough to have an orgasm. No matter what I've tried... and that's why I have tried a lot of things... I can come like one time in a hundred.

- Are you sure that the problem is with you? – he asked curiously. Wow. He really tried to pay attention to me.

- Yep. Tried it with a lot of guys but it's the same. I like doing it, I really enjoy it, but that mindfucking feeling is rare. I think it's because of my clairvoyance. That I have to use up a lot of mental energy to repress it... and I can't let myself enjoy sex fully – I shrugged.

- This actually sounds reasonable – Deán said.

- Yeah, imagine starting to hear voices in your head while having sex – I laughed. That was one of my biggest fears... especially if it was about the person I had sex with.

- I will try to be good enough for you, all right, Winnie? – he asked. He looked at me so confidently suddenly... that I couldn't stop grinning.

- Man, this was your first and I can hardly believe it. We're gonna have so much fun in that one year – I smiled devilishly.