LOVER | YANG JUNGWON

Not invited

I laid my head down on my arms that were crossed on the table. I was tired since I woke up earlier to walk the twins to school. They said that they felt like walking to school today and they wanted me to come with since they couldn't go alone. Did I really want to wake up earlier? Not really, but I still did it anyways. Since we left earlier than usual I ended up arriving to my class before the time I normally do.

I heard when Hana sat down in the seat next to me and a muffled 'Hi' could be heard as I tried to talk with my face against my arms.

I heard Seeun's bubbly voice greeting us, and surprisingly Jungwon was there with her guessing by his voice.

"Is she asleep?" I heard him ask the girls in a hushed voice.

I wasn't, but I was too lazy to move from my spot and correct him. So I just let him think that I was.

"Guys we need to hangout again before I leave" I heard the sadness in Seeun's voice as I was reminded once again of her soon departure. She looked at me with an evident frown.

"Yeah, lets do something" I finally moved my head so I could get a clear view of the three students sitting around me.

"I thought you were taking a nap." Jungwon said. "Key word, thought." I told him to which he jokingly rolled his eyes.

"And do what though?" Hana asked.

"Hm, maybe we can..." Seeun thought for a moment before speaking, "Oo, how about karaoke?"

"Thats actually a good idea, we should get food after and just sit and talk." I suggested.

"Aw, I wanna go" Jungwon butted in.

"Sorry, girls thing only" Hana shook her head at him.

"Whatever, you guys are no fun anyways" He said, salty that he wasn't invited.

During lunch as the three of us were heading to the courtyard, Sunoo caught up to us, telling us to come eat at their table. Sometimes I would sit with them but I didn't like to go all the time because I didn't want to feel like I'm intruding or a burden that they didn't ask for.

Seeun happily agreed and followed Sunoo who was leading the way. As soon as we reached the large group of guys she sat down in between Jungwon and Niki. There was a space at the end of the bench that was enough to fit Sunoo, Hana, and I.

Jake had brought up the subject of a girl who had asked Sunghoon out on a date. Apparently she was very popular amongst the boys in their grade.

"Are you going to accept?" Niki asked curiously.

"I mean she's really cute, but I dont know" He shrugged.

"You should just go with her, you never know you might really like her." Seeun stated, grabbing on the arm of Jungwon and leaning towards him. The sight of this made me feel envious in some way, my jaw had clenched just a little bit and now I was staring at the two of them. I tried to see how he was reacting to all of this but his previous emotions didn't falter. He was just there, immersed into the conversation in front of him.

I could feel my nails digging into the palms of my hand, turning more red each second. Why did this make me so mad, out of nowhere? Maybe because there was such a pretty girl so close to him but then again why is it bothering me. Seeun was the kind of person that you couldn't stay mad at no matter how hard you tried. And even if you were mad at her, you'd feel guilty since she's genuinely such a nice person. It wasn't her fault that I was feeling this way, so why should she be on the receiving end of this bitterness. Besides they've known each other for a longer time so I'm sure its normal that they do this.