Flower of Scotland

Part 38

I stood outside the clubhouse the next morning smoking and sipping on a cup of tea. Mine and Happy's interactions had been awkward since our exchange the previous night. There's a fine line between love and hate and I seemed to straddle it.

My company grew as more MC members awoke and came to join me, chatting and bantering.

A charcoal Grey Merc rolled into the lot and we all turned to see who this visitor was. A Skinny, bottle blonde girl hopped out, flicking her hair over her shoulder and teetering along the concrete on expensive heels.

"Happy! She shrieked in a penetrating shrill making her way to clubhouse entrance. "Daddy said I'm not to see you anymore! I won't let him keep us apart."

I turned my head back and forwards between the girl and Juice my mouth open and eyebrows raised in amused shock.

"Oh shit. Happy got himself tangled up with Daddy's princess." I said barely containing my laughter.

The men laughed along with me.

"How long do you think it will take Mario to come rescue Princess Peach from Bowser? I asked.

Juice pointed towards the car.

"Not too long if the driver calls Daddy."

Behind my laughter the lump in my throat was choking me. My guts twisted and I struggled to keep the images of them together right now out of my mind.

I had come on that morning and had had a niggling period pain since I woke up. This turn of events had soured my mood even more.

Hearing the clubhouse door open, I subtly turned my head and saw Happy emerging with his boney arsed bird. She turned back to him once they were both through the door and kissed him. I took solace in the fact that he didn't seem to reciprocate the kiss, just allowed her to do so.

Jax was at my elbow. Speaking quietly so no one could overhear and gesturing with a tip of his chin he said

"That bother you?"

I sighed. "Of course it does. But he's a free agent, he does as he pleases......he always did anyway."

"Tell him." Jax suggested.

I looked at him like he had lost it. "Erm, no. I wouldn't give him the satisfaction."

The conversation ended for a couple of minutes until I asked him.

"You got any strong painkillers inside?"

He looked at me concerned.

"Yeah, there should be, you in pain?"

I nodded "Sucks being a woman."

He snickered understanding.

My pain had grown from a niggle to an all out war in my uterus. My lower back and thighs had also joined the party and I struggled to walk upright.
I followed Jax through the clubhouse and into the kitchen where he opened a cabinet and rifled through some boxes calling out names until he got to one I recognised.

"Those!" I almost shouted. "They'll do."

He passed me the box and I dry swallowed two without checking the label. And turned to leave.

"I'll be in my Uncle's room if you need me." I tossed back over my shoulder as I left the room and slowly made my way towards the dorm keeping my hand pressed to the wall for support as I went.

I groaned loudly after shutting the door behind me. Now in the privacy of just my own company I let me face screw up in pain.

"Arghhh, fucksake." I whispered to myself.

Edging toward the bathroom I turned the taps on for the bath and used a claw clip to secure my hair high on my head. Following my normal course of action for this type of pain.

As the bath filled I leaned on the side rocking my hips side to side and regulating my breathing.

I heard the dorm room door open and close.

I didn't have it in me to care who it was in this moment so I didn't bother to ask. Instead I turned the taps off and dipped my hand in to check the temperature and give the water a swish, still rocking my hips

A glass of whiskey and a joint in an ashtray were put down on the other end of the bath. I turned to see Happy.

"It used to help." He said gravelly.

"Thanks" I replied blandly, still leaning on the bath rim.

He moved to stand behind me, placing his hands on my hips and pressing his thumbs into the bottom of my back.

I rolled my neck upwards as some of the pain was momentarily relieved. But then annoyance hit me and I stood up stepping to the side and out of his grasp.

"Don't" I said softly.

Happy licked his lips and sighed.

I had to push him away verbally otherwise I would allow him to comfort me and I don't think that would end well for either of us.

"Go find your princess Hap. Leave me alone." Again I spoke soft and low.

I think we both knew it's not what I wanted.  The way my body responded to him without a conscious thought was enough for him to know. That fact pissed me off even more. I was annoyed at myself. Annoyed that even after all this time, even after everything he had done. I still wanted him. I still sought him out even as I pushed him away.

He snorted and cut his eye in irritation, abruptly turning and leaving the bathroom then the dorm all together.