The Secret Six (gxg)

17 : When You Fall

Chapter 17

Drew's POV

It has been a week since I had a panic attack in the school bathroom. I haven't had a panic attack in years, three to be exact. I never thought I would have one after Blair kissed me. This one was really bad. I can see the worry on my siblings' faces.

The first time I ever had a panic attack I was 15. It was in front of my family when we were training one afternoon. I began to feel like I couldn't breathe. My chest felt like I had a giant rock on top of it. My parents were the ones that helped me through it. They tried to get me to give up being a secret agent but I begged them to let me continue. I know that they are going to try to make me quit but I don't want to. I love what I do.

Having this time to myself has made me feel a lot better, but my parents thought it would be better for me to take it slow. I started training during my free time when my siblings were at school due to boredom. I could not sit still doing nothing.

Blair has called and texted me a lot, but I have yet to respond to her. She asks about me everyday. My siblings tell her that I am okay, but she wants to know more. She even showed up to our house once. My parents told her that I didn't want to see anyone and that I needed time.

I want to see her, but I don't know what I am supposed to do. I haven't even talked to my family about it. They want to have a talk, but they said when I am ready. I am not allowed to work until we have that talk though.

"Mom, Dad" they are in the home office.

"Yes sweetheart?"

"I'm ready to talk"

"Okay. We will get your siblings and meet you in the livingroom"

I walk to the livingroom and wait for them to all come. Once everyone is seated I take a few breaths before I begin.

"I'm just going to tell you straight to the point. The time when we were training and I had my first panic attack, it was because I saw my bio mom"

"What?!" they all were taken by major surprise by what I said.

"I know that you guys wiped all of our information of our adoption from every public record, but I hacked into the agency's system and found my file. They had my original birth certificate with my bio mom's name on it"

"Drew!" my mom scolds me.

"I know. I know. I shouldn't have done that, but I just wanted to know what happened to my bio parents. I wanted to know more about my birth. And when I found her name I looked her up"

"What did you find?" Killian asks me.

"Well one, that she was still alive and two, that she still lived in Germany. When we worked on the Berlin case I snuck off to where she lived"

"Did you talk to her?" Victoria asks.

"No. But I saw her with her family. She was walking in the park with a young girl and boy. During our training that afternoon it was all I could think about and then I had that panic attack"

"Why did you never tell us this?" my dad asks.

"Because I was scared. I didn't want you guys to get in trouble for my actions. I didn't want you to feel bad for me wanting to know where I came from"

"Drew, we understand that you want to know where you came from. Please don't hide these things from us anymore though. We prefer to have you healthy and safe then not know what is going on"

"I'm sorry. I swear that I won't hide something like this from you guys again"

"What caused the panic attack at school?' my dad asks.