Like Stars In The Sky

this is me trying

-12 months later-

Julie's pov.
I open the curtains and sun instantly shines in our bedroom. Luke yawns and I open the window to let some fresh air come in.
"Okay I'll see you later honey" I kiss Luke's cheek and he smiles.
"Have a fun day my love"
"Bye" I run downstairs grab my car keys and drive off. I'm really excited for work. I started work 2 months ago again and it's been pretty amazing. Life just slowly moves on again. I'm still not over it and i will never be but i manage to control my panic attacks and i overall feel better. Still sad but better. I'll never forget her. Never ever.
And the kids at work keep me distracted.
"Look i got a new shirt" Clara says as I walk in class.
I smile and kneel down.
"You look adorable cutie" I say and she smiles and runs to her seat.
"Good morning my lovelys! Today we will once again rehears for the charity project. Okay?"
I make a charity project for babies and children with heart diseases! I do it in honor of Melody. And my class is going to play there this weekend!
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Luke's pov.
I hear the door shut and smile as Julie walks in and throws her bag on the floor.
"Hey honey! How was work?" I ask and she walks over to give me a kiss.
"Amazing! We are so ready for the charity event!"
I chuckle and she looks in the oven.
"What are you making?"
"Your favorite food!" I kiss her cheek and she smiles even more. I love seeing her smile again! I missed it!
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Today i decided that we're going to eat outside in the garden. I place the noodles and the pasta sauce on the table and sit down across Julie. We start eating.
After delicious food and good talks we clean the kitchen and I go upstairs for some music writing and Julie goes in our garden to probably work on some vegetables and flowers.

-3 days later-

Julie's pov.
I lay in bed with a wet towel on my forehead. Yesterday was the charity event and it went so so good. My students were amazing and i loved every second of it. But today I'm knocked out. Got a massive headache as soon as i woke up. Ugh.
"Here you have some tea Julie" Luke places the cup on the nightstand next to me and I give him a small nod.
"I'm going to work now. Call me if you need me okay?" He kisses my cheek.
"Thank you" I whisper and soon fall asleep.
Woke up freaking 5 hours later! Headache gone and hungry as hell.
"Mh-mhmm?" I mumble to myself and walk downstairs to make me a sandwich.
Oh boy the last time I was so hungry was when i was pregnant with Melody...
Mhm.
No.
Oh no.
I'm not pregnant! I laugh out loud. I can't be. Right? I shake of my nerves and start making a sandwich.
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After i finished i walked upstairs where i look at myself in the bathroom mirror.
Hmmmm.
I look different. More shiny.
"No uh Julie! You're just overreacting now!" I say and shake my head.
But what if....
Only one right thing to do...call Flynn! She will tell me that I'm overreacting.
I call up her number and she picks up soon.
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"Hey best friend" she yells and in the background i can hear Aiden cry.
"Sorry he won't eat his food." She says and soon the crying fades away.
"Now we can talk! Whats up?" She asks and I sigh.
"Oh no what happend Julie?" She sounds so worried.
"You just have to tell me that I'm overreacting okay?" I explain.
"Alright but i can't promise that"
"I think I'm pregnant" i say and it's silent for a few seconds.
"WHAT!" She yells and I put my phone on speaker.
"You have to say I'm overreacting Flynn!"
"No but really? What makes you think that?" She sounds excited.
"Haven't had my period since i don't know how long. I woke up with a massive headache this morning and I'm always so hungry"
"AHHHHH" she yells.
"FLYNN!"
"Sorry but I'm so excited!"
"What should i do?" I ask and she chuckles.
"Take a test duh?!"
"But I'm scared" I sigh again.
"Why? You did it before"
"That's the point. Flynn I'm scared it might not work out this time and something horrible happens again. I don't think I'm ready you know?"
"Oh Jules. One step at a time okay?"
"Thank you Flynn. Wish me luck"
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I take a deep breath and look in the cabinet underneath the sink. A whole new pack I brought a few months ago just in case. We are not trying and we actually never spoke about another baby since Melody passed away. What if Luke doesn't want children anymore?
I open the box with shaky hands and take the test.
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I took the test 45min ago. It's ready but I'm scared to look at it. Scared that it's positive.
I'am.not.ready.
For another baby.
I sit on the bathroom floor the test next to me. Okay Julie! Now do it!
I grab the test and look at it for a long long time.
-Positive-
This can't be! No no no no no no no.
I sob and throw my hands on my face.
"Julie?" I hear from outside the bathroom. Oh no! Why is Luke back early today?
"Yes?" I say but my voice sounds shaky. Shit.
"What are you doing? Are you okay?"
I'm so glad I locked the door.
"Uhh yes I'm fine!" I yell.
"Okay! I'll go downstairs and make some dinner okay?"
"Thank you" I yell back and hear him walk away. I can't tell him. Not now not yet.

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I'm finally back with more chapters! Sorry for the long waiting but i was sick once again! Working at a preschool is knocking my immune system OUT! Anyways i hope yall enjoyed this chapter!
-Izzy-