Secrets kept under the surface

Talk

Way home was silent, Luz didn't say a word after they left school's ground.

Lucia wondered if it was because of that argument in cafeteria. She felt stupid for letting one small argument with her girlfriend get to her head so much again!

Lucia gripped handlebars of the motorcycle, AND the fact that she completely forgot about her small sister!

A small bit of guilt and anger squeezed her insides.

Luz's thoughts were in other dimension. This wasn't the first time that Lucia suddenly cancelled a date with her girlfriend. But whenever she asked for Lucia's reason, she always give Luz same excuse; There was a sudden change of plans..

Luz wanted to know the answer, but the nervous tone of her older sister's voice made her hesitate about asking. She never heard Lucia sound so nervous.

"I'm sorry," said Lucia snapping Luz back into a reality. "I' sorry for coming late and not being there for you earlier."

"Huh?" Luz is confused, why on earth is Lucia apologising? Than it hit her. "oh no! Don't blame yourself!" said Luz tightening her grip on Lucia's waist. "It was my mistake for letting myself get provoked so easily! You did nothing wrong!"

Reassurance in her sister's voice calmed Lucia's nerves a bit. Her thoughts brought her back to what that pink barbie was saying.

"What that pink no brain even wanted?" She asked.

Luz stayed silent for a bit, "Well... she was making fun of you.." she began, Lucia listened patiently. "And?" She asked curiously "that can't be all" Luz inhaled, "And she intentionally started to missgender you, so I got mad and decided to correct her.    Oh.

An uncomfortable silence began to stretch between the sisters.

"Listen Luz," said Lucia to break the silence. "I appreciate your concern about me and your support."

Luz shivered, "But?" "But.." continued Lucia "I don't want you to get into fights because of me, I know Bosha is bitch with no brain who deserves to have her nose broken, but I don't you to get into trouble." She inhaled, "trusts me when I say this. Path of delinquent is not something you wanna experience."

Luz tucked to her sister. Lucia could fell her heart beating against her back.

"Are you mad?" She asked.

"No, I'm not mad Luz, or disappointed!" said Lucia quickly."I don't want you to get hurt Luz. You don't fix anything with fighting, you are just going to get yourself into unnecessary trouble."

I won't be there next year to help you... she added in her mind.

Luz nuzzled her head in Lucia's back. "I know... can you... not tell mom about that?"
Luz's pleading voice melted her heart, "don't worry, I'm not going to tell a soul. Pinkie promise!" She added.

Luz let out a chuckle, "and people say I'm the childish one!"

Lucia dramatically gasped "how dare you insult my childishness like that!" And they both broke into an pleasant laugh. And the rest of the ride passed smoothly.

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Both Nocedas successfully arrived at front yard of their home. Luz jumped off the motorcycle, "do you have a work today?" asked Lucia. "No, the library is closed today. They have to repair something and mister Whispers is taking his wife to some fancy dinner" explained Luz and took off her helmet.

Luz wasn't really "working," she had just been reading to small kids at the Gravesfield's library. And got some extra credit in school. Even though she didn't get paid any money, she put her whole soul into the job. It was also one of the rare times she could express her full passion without being harshly judged.

"What a romantic" joked Lucia and reached for her sister's helmet, but Luz didn't let go. She raised an eyebrow and give Luz a confused look.

Luz knew that her sister's relationship was none of her business, but she needed to ask, she wanted to know what was wrong so she maybe could help her Lucia.

"So..." she stared anxiously, Lucia rolled her eyes. "Out with it."

"Could you please tell me what happened between you and your girlfriend?" She let out an nervous chuckle. Oh. Right.

Lucia stayed silent staring at her sister, her memories flashing back to Amelia trying to have sex with her in schools bathroom. She shivered, took the helmet and started walking toward their house without saying a word.

"Lucia! please!" yelled Luz and ran after her sister. "I want to help! I know there's something wrong-"

"YOU CAN'T HELP ME WITH THIS LUZ! DON'T YOU GET A HINT?!"

Yelled Lucia, cutting Luz off guard. She was stunned, her sister hardly ever raised her voice on her, only when Luz really crossed line.

Lucia inhaled, rubbing her temples, "Look Luz, I know you're worried about me, but there are some stuff that I'm not comfortable to talk with you about. You're too young and innocent for that." Luz raised an eyebrow."I can try to understand if you told me, and I'm not a little baby who doesn't understand serious things." Objected Luz.

"Yes, I know that but..." Lucia paused, she really didn't want to dump her problem on Luz. "What happened between me and Amelia is complicated, I myself don't really know what am I supposed to do right now.." Luz patiently listened, she was finally getting some answers. "Of course I don't consider you to be a small baby Luz, But... you're just not a right person who should I should have this conversation with." Lucia finished.

Luz stayed silent, "do you understand now?" asked Lucia. Luz just nodded her head. "Good" breathed Lucia and walked to front door and entered their home.