~Most beautiful in the world~ Oscar/Arthur

Chapter 14

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"Art." Says Dennis, and Arthur smiles when he sees the younger boy walking up to him.

Arthur was sitting on a chair in the sun. He kept his promise, he is resting for the qualification for later. He didn't go to Ferrari to watch.

He's tired, and he's not sure if it is because he did too much or that all the relaxing is making him tired. He doesn't like to sit down and, to be honest, he's not enjoying it as much as he thought he would.

"How are you feeling?" Asks Dennis and gives Arthur a hug and sits down next to him.

"I feel better, way better than yesterday." Says Arthur with a laugh.

"That's good. Charles told us what happened after. It really shook me." Say Dennis.

"I'm sorry that I did this to you." Says Arthur and Dennis his eyes widen.

"What do you mean?"

"That you had to see that, me not responding and collapsing." Says Arthur

"Don't be sorry! Yes, it was a scary but I was glad that I was there with you so that you wouldn't be alone."

"It was better if I was."

"Why would you say that?"

"I held you up and worried you. Charles told me how worried you were."

"Maybe I texted him too much, sorry. But I'm worried about you. Thank god that you grabbed my arm so I could grab you before you fell." Says Dennis and Arthur looks away.

"Are you okay, like really okay?" Asks Dennis and lays his hand on Arthur's arm.

"I'm scared." Begins Arthur and takes a deep breath.

"I don't want everyone to think that I'm this guy with an eating disorder, because I don't have one. Just because I'm struggling with food sometimes, doesn't mean I have one. And when everyone around you says that you have one, it hurts. This isn't like last time. Nobody wants to listen." Says Arthur.

"You had one before?" Asks Dennis and Arthur slowly nods before looking away. "Nobody knows that, well apart from his family and Oscar." Says Arthur and looks at his hands.

"When I was sixteen and seventeen, even before that, I was struggling, but in those two years it had become worse. Short story. I ended up in the hospital and had a feeding tube to keep me alive. I didn't eat back then, and what I had eaten, I threw up because I couldn't handle it in my stomach."

"But an eating disorder isn't just about throwing your food back up." Says Dennis.

"I know that. But I also know my body. I have this new thing for food with Lorenzo with what I will eat, so I'm okay. I'm doing well." Says Arthur, and Dennis nods.

"If you ever need me, I'm here for you, always. No matter what time it is." Says Dennis.

"That's sweet of you." Says Arthur.

"I have to go, good luck in qualifying." Says Dennis and leaves Arthur alone.

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When Charles had finished the first free practice, he went to Arthur together with Lorenzo. They were going to have lunch together. Arthur has a chicken wrap in front of him and looks at his brothers who are already eating. Arthur occasionally takes a bite and then pauses again. And his stomach feels like he has to throw up, and the feeling that his food comes up, but he tries to ignore it.

They talk about how their free practice sessions were, Charles gives him some tips to drive a little closer at a corner so he can gain time. Arthur has his qualification in an hour and he can't wait for that to be done and he can finally go to the hotel room to rest. He's really tired.