Surf Trip//Jiara

Chapter 51

~Kie's pov~

The next day we woke up early so we could get to Outer Banks as soon as we could. We were going to make at least two days till there so it's better if we're leaving early.

We loaded the car with food and water and then started. I stayed in the back with JJ, Pope and Cleo while Sarah and John B were in the front. Neither of us talked for the first hours, Pope, Cleo and Sarah were sleeping while JJ was having his cap on his face so I couldn't tell if he was awake or asleep.

After a few hours it started raining so it was the best time to sleep like the others did but I just couldn't. I tried to change positions and everything but I still couldn't sleep. I couldn't even close my eyes for longer than a few seconds. I was in alert mood all the time even if I could barely focus on things around me.

After a few more hours of driving me and John B were still the only ones awake but no one of us said anything. He probably didn't even notice me.

I tried my best to fall asleep but nothing worked so she had to make sure her thoughts didn't drift away.

It didn't work.

My mind decided that it was a good time to think about my kook year. There wasn't a specific thought, there were more at one coming over me.

The first thought that got in my mind was the first day at kook academy. Nothing happened in that day, apart from a few dirty looks from some girls. But apart from that I was alone.

Everyday after school I'd go see the pogues and listen to all the stories that happened at school. It was my favourite part of the day.

That kept happening for a few more days until one day Sarah stopped me in the hallway to ask stuff about me. At first I thought she was just to figure a way to create more gossip subjects with her friends so I tried not to say anything apart from what she asked me.

Then the next day she came again. And the next day too. And then she introduced me to her group of friends.

After this it was harder and harder to hang out with the pogues. Sarah knew about them but she suggested me not to say anything to anyone else or keep it a secret if I hang out with them.

Me and Sarah spent almost every day together, making bracelets, going to beach, saving turtles, going to parties, stealing drinks from her dad or even just watching stupid movies.

After a while JJ was the only one that was still trying to convince me to come to parties or even just hang out at the chateau even if I always had to find stupid excuses so I won't go.

But that changed one day when I told him that I'd go to a party with him and the pogues and I didn't show up. Sarah convinced me go to a party that day and I completely forgot about JJ and the other party.

He came to Sarah's house where the party was and we argued. Me and JJ never had serious fights before that one.

The next days neither of the pogues would talk to me or even look at me when we passed past eachother on the street.

After this me and Rafe started dating, I didn't want to agree with this at first. Me and him were friends and it was more than enough but Sarah said it'll fix my reputation after that whole fight with JJ at the party.

When me and Rafe started dating things slowly went back to the kook life style until one night at some party. It started of as the best night until I saw him with some friends getting high so I tried to talk with him about it but he kept ignoring me so I told him that if he won't stop now it's over.

He got mad and dragged me into some room and then the whole thing happened. I just sat there, feeling numb and doing nothing about him forcing himself on me. I did nothing and maybe that's why it's my fault.

Luckily, he could've barely walk so he stopped after a while before we could get too further. I left as quick as I could before he could wake up and dragged myself home.

When my parents saw me they insisted to go to the hospital even if I told them that I got in a fight.

For a few days, after that party, I was in the hospital but didn't have my phone. My parents decided that they should ground me for the fight I told them I got in. While there is figured more and more ways to cope with what happend in the worst way possible.

When I got back to school no one was really looking at me or talking to me. I looked for Sarah but everytime I was going near her she found excuses to leave as fast as she could.

Then it came her birthday, she said she'd rather stay at home with her family than do a big thing like throwing a party which was weird since Sarah loved parties. On that night I was planning to quickly go to her house and leave her a gift I got from her.

I walked towards the house cause my parents were at the Wreck and I still didn't have my phone to call them. I kept walking towards her house while the music kept getting louder and louder.

In front of her house were plenty of kids from school, dancing and drinking. She invited the whole school to her birthday but me. That's why she kept ignoring me for days and tried her best to avoid me.

I walked back towards my house, trying to ignore the tears that won't stop rolling on my face. I couldn't understand what I did wrong. When I got back to my house I decided to call from the landline the police and report the party.

I tried my best to convince my mom not to send me to school the next days but she did anyway. As soon as I got to school I tried my best not to focus on every single thing they were telling me. When I got to my locker and opened it, a couple of notes fell out of it. I picked a few of them up and read them. On each of them was writing either slut, party ruiner or dirty pogue.

I didn't even bother to try and read the other notes. I let them there and went to my next class, trying my best not to let the tears fall out and ignore all the words that were thrown in my face.

At lunch it didn't get any better. I didn't even try to go at Sarah's table, I started walking to some table with kids that didn't seem to focused on everything that happened.

Before I could've get to the table some girl from Sarah's group came to me and took the sandwich I got from the Wreck, looking at it in disgust, saying that she didn't expect the leftovers to actually get in the trash.

Everyone laughed.

Everyone.

After that I started avoiding lunch and pretty much anyone at school even if it was pretty hard when they were the ones that kept coming towards me and leaving me notes every day.

After a few more days my parents noticed things were off and eventually they agreed to let me change schools and go back to Kildar but I didn't have anyone in there either. I was fully alone so what was my point of being here anyway?

Suddenly I felt someone shaking me and snapping me out of my thoughts. I looked in front of me, trying to blink away the tears so I could see better.

"Kie, what's wrong?" asked JJ looking at me worried.

"Nothing, I just got lost in thoughts" I said, forcing a smile.

He didn't seem to buy it, he moved his spot from next to Pope and came next to me, moving a hand around my shoulders and slowly pulling me closer. I let my head fall on his shoulders and moved my legs over his.

He kept stroking my hair and saying something I couldn't focus on. The whole lack of sleep and tiredness made me fall asleep as soon as I closed my eyes.