You Belong to Me

Porchay's Confession

Porsche went and sat next to Kinn. Kinn put his arms around his lover as he knew he was feeling some of what Kim had said. Everyone really did not know what to say. Kim still had a hold of Chay as if shielding him from the family so he would not be hurt. Chay let go of Kim and motioned for them to sit down. Kim sat down and was surprised when Chay sat next to him but leaned against him for support. It seemed like everyone was watching them and Kim was uncomfortable. He never did like being the center of attention. When he was about to say something, Chay started talking first.

Kim told his side of the story, now I will tell mine. I have always felt like a burden to my brother as after our parents died, he had to work and forgo his dreams to take care of me. He did not permit me to work as he just wanted me to study so I could get into university. I knew he had dreams of opening a bar on the beach, but instead of following his dreams, he worked all sorts of jobs and even did illegal fighting to earn money not only to pay back the debts of Uncle Thee, but also so that we would not lose the house. Then my senior year in HS he disappears and says he has taken this fantastic job as a bartender miles away leaving me alone to take care of myself.

This is when I met Wik/Kim. He was my idol. I never dreamed of meeting him, but then I did, and it was great, and my heart fluttered. He tutored me in guitar, and I fell in love with him. Our first night we spent together was great. We just talked and fell asleep holding each other. I woke up and was kidnapped. I did not understand what was happening, but Wik/Kim tried to save me, and he was hurt because of me. I did not know how to fight back. While I was at the warehouse, I could not help but worry as to whether he was all right or not. Then that evil Tawan knocked me out. I was rescued and learned that my brother was a bodyguard and not being a bartender on an island to some rich dude. I was hurt. I could not believe my brother had lied to me. No one said anything about Wik, I wanted to go back to our house to see if he was hurt but I had to come to the mansion.

Then when I met Khun, I found out that Wik/Kim was Kinn's brother. I felt betrayed again, but I understood why he would keep something like that secret. I wanted to see him real bad, but when I found him. He said he never loved me and was only with me to get information on my brother. That was the ultimate betrayal. He left me on his steps crying and security had to ask me to leave. I was embarrassed, hurt, and had nowhere to call home. I came back to this stupid mansion and tried my best to live my life, but I was hollow inside. Khun did his best to keep my spirits up by acting crazy and getting me to play along. I felt like I had a friend that would not lie to me, but I still loved Kim and wanted him. So, I did all sorts of stupid things just to get his attention even if it was the type I did not want. Then at the bar when he killed those guys, he just left without even saying anything to me. I again felt like I was just a burden to everyone. So, I went and got a hotel room and decided to kill myself. As I was contemplating this, I got a video from Kim. I realized then that he loved me but for some reason could not be with me.

I came back to the mansion and decided to make things difficult for him so he would understand how hurt I was. I kept having nightmares of the time I was kidnapped, and he always knew. I moved into the dorm early because I was getting to used to Kim sneaking in my room and sleeping beside me. He thought I did not know, but I did. When he did not understand the duet that I sang with Minnow, I hated him. How could he just ignore our love? Then he rescued me from being drugged and did not take advantage of my situation. I knew he loved me, but I was still hurt. We would fight and I loved him more every time he told me I belonged to him.

Then I got kidnapped again. I knew Kim would come save me. It was the only hope I had. Those guys gave me drugs and would beat me and tell me all kinds of stuff about how no one cared for me. I began to not know what was real and what was not. The only thing I had to hold onto was that Kim would find a way to rescue me. Though those guys faked my rescue all the time. When I was finally rescued, I did not know if it was real. All I knew was that I needed Kim. When I woke up in the hospital, I was in so much pain that I just wanted to end things. I did not want to be in pain anymore and I thought it was a trick, so I left myself let go. It was not the mix of medication; it was me letting myself go. I could feel the paddles, but I did not care, but then I felt someone grab my hand. That hand felt safe, it felt like Kim. My brain was fuzzy, but I knew I had to come back for Kim.