I am nothing, within this universe I will not be much at all. Compared to many, many things, I am almost a speck of dust. There is no point to life if I am not great, and I am not great. I'm not going to make it through high school. I hope I fucking die before high school...rip. The thought of killing myself is just too pretty not to turn down. If I killed myself, I wouldn't have to worry about people anymore. I wouldn't worry about if people actually liked me. I wouldnt have to worry about love anymore. For what feels like the first time, I'm the one leaving. And that feeling feels so fucking good. I need lo9ve, I need power, most importantly I need to be better than fucking everyone. I really do wished I was worshipped sometimes. I with I was praised for my every action. I wish I was god sometimes. Ngl naw I am god. If I tell myself that, I will believe it. Then I will no longer be afraid of death.
I am not meant to be loved, and I am not needed among them
