I hate September's so much, lol
if you look at the posts on this story that were in September you can probably understand why
"Maybe tonight" was a year ago, I'm not sure of the exact date "tonight" actually happened.. Not on the first tho (I think idfk guys)
I'm actually still friends with the person I spoke of that September
it's gotten better, a bit
I still think about the toxicity of the relationship a lot though, I'm still not healed, I don't think they are either.
I still do things wrong, which they point out... kinda often, ig. Sometimes things are really stupid.
Another person still hasn't come back, and tomorrow (well, I'm writing this at like midnight so basically today) it will have been 2 years
I really need to get over it, I didn't know them for that long.
They aren't actually coming back, I know that, they probably have forgotten me already, which is okay, we will all move on.
Still can't believe I made it this long. I've been praying on my own death for a while, accept obviously I don't want to die anymore. I'm better now. Except I'm not really good at all. I still get really bad days.
Sometimes I even still think something along the lines of "Maybe tonight".
Tonight won't be soon though.
