i think the loneliness is getting to me. No one is excited to see me, enthusiastic about whatever i have to say. Im so boring now. too boring or too much. Its mostlikely my fault, since i never talk to people anymore. maybe im just not trying hard enough, not trying to get into new friendgroups enough, butting into conversations enough. Who would want me to interrupt a conversation though? I probably wouldn't have anything important to say any ways. Im not important enough either way, i'm just not wanted, really. shouldn't both sides make an effort? well, neither party is so who is to blame? would anyone notice if i wasnt here? if i just didnt speak at all? everyone has someone else to talk to, so is there really a reason to talk at all?
