I wish someone would suffocate me with a pillow so I would just be quiet for once.
Too sad to function anymore. They might as well just leave me behind. I know I'll just drag them down. I'm willing to go so they will be okay. I know they will be okay without me anyways. There's not a point anyway, no one who loves me romantically. Soon no one to love me platonically soon, since I keep failing to respond, but that's my fault. I'm not going to achieve anything higher than what I am. I'm not really good at anything. I can't draw like all of my friends can, I can't learn fast enough. I can't BE good at something. Someone will always be better than me, and I can't accept it. I can't do this anymore.
I can't kill myself, what am I talking about? I would never do that! I can't ever do that. I can't stop being scared of it.
