𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐀𝐁𝐔𝐒𝐄𝐃 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐃 ➼ 𝐋𝐚𝐰𝐥𝐮

𝘊𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘍𝘰𝘶𝘳

A/n: Thanks for being patient with me! please comment and vote! i love to your guys' comments <3 Also, warning. This chapter deals with a lot of dark thoughts and suicidal thoughts. Please don't read if that triggers you.

Words: 529

Status: Edited

Over the course of 3 weeks, Luffy and Law had been exchanging looks and talking in the halls. Somehow they always found themselves bumping into each another in one place or another.

Luffy's friends were catching on one day, after Luffy and Law said "hi" to each other when Law was going for his next class.

"So," Nami started, "who's your new friend?"

Luffy looked down trying to hide her smile, "His name is Law. And he isn't my new friend." At that last part she frowned. Why though? He looks like he wants to be my friend!

Nami looked at her confused, "Sure." she said sarcastically while rolling her eyes. "Looks to me like you two are in love!" She laughed as she said this. She threw her head back laughing.

Luffy turned her head to her quickly, "What?". In love with Law? Honestly, that didn't sound too bad to her. What am I saying?!

"Nothing, nothing, let's just get to class."

. . . . . ╰──╮𝓉𝒾𝓂𝑒 𝓈𝓀𝒾𝓅╭──╯ . . . . .

It was three weeks since Law and Luffy met, and three weeks since school started. Three weeks since she's been trying to make Law be her new friend. Luffy was in her bed trying to sleep. Her thoughts running wild in her brain. Her and her dark thoughts battling in her head.

𝗟𝘂𝗳𝗳𝘆'𝘀 𝗣𝗢𝗩:

He doesn't want to be your friend.

No. He does!

If he did then he would've accepted to be your friend.

He's just self-conscious!

That's more like you. He's just trying to be kind to you. He pities you.

No, he doesn't.

They'd be better off if you weren't around.

No they wouldn't! I have many friends and family here that love me very much.

They pity you. Everyone pities you. You're stupid! You almost failed last year if your siblings weren't helping you!

That's okay! School isn't for me, I'll do something else.

You'd screw that up too. You're hopeless, you're wasting everyone's time. Just leave and give everyone peace and quiet.

No, I'm not, I'm not hopeless! I was loosing against myself. I'm loosing the battle quickly. I'm drowning in my own thoughts.

Use a knife to stab yourself, or better yet go to the bridge and jump.

No, I won't do that!

Why? You chicken? Or maybe you'll screw that up too.

Why am I even fighting? Why am I trying? I am hopeless. I am stupid. I don't deserve my friends or family. I didn't deserve to graduate last year. Law thinks that way of me. Everyone thinks that way of me. And now I finally think that way of me.

If no one wants me in their life... then why am I here?

A/n: I was gonna write all this to be one long chapter but I decided against it. chapter six will be out sooner than later. Sorry I made you wait so long. Also, 10 Days of Lawlu (on tumblr but also on ao3 is starting on the 28th so feel free to check out my work and others' work!)