greatest desires

chapter 10

"Dad please!. I don't want to go in there again, it's dark and cramped, please, please daddy don't make me go in there!." I plead, begging him not to shut me in the closet again.

The closet was a small dark storage room underneath the stairs, and he locked me in there whenever I didn't do what he said, or made a mistake.

"paul, she didn't even mean to. All she did was spill the milk, it was an accident. Just leave her this time." I hear jace say, walking close beside us while dads arm gripped around my small frail arms.

"This is the third time she's done it! The stupid bitch can't even hold a glass of milk? How's she going to be any good for her future husband if she can't even bring a cup of milk?!" His yell spreads through the house like fire, trapping everyone and everything inside.

He pull open the cupboard door, and throws me inside, leaving me with a sore back and an unwanted headache from his screams.

"paul." I hear jaces stern voice behind him, urging him to let me out, just this once.

"My names dad to you. Don't call me by my name son. You'll learn in life to respect your elders. Everything I'm doing is for her, so she'll be the perfect, behaved woman when she's older." He smirks, his stupid, stupid smirk that never left his face. He knew my weaknesses, and he abused that power.

Jace wasn't strong enough to fight back with my father, no one was. There was something daring about my dad, he had something different about him. He was cruel, and violent, unlike my brother.

"please daddy don't shut the door!. I'm sorry I'm sorry!!." I beg, pleading him not to shut it, I push against the small door as hard as I can, pushing with all my might. But I wasn't strong enough, not for dad.

the small rectangular door slammed shut, leaving me in the darkness with nothing but my thoughts.

dark thoughts.

"why do you do this to me daddy!.." I cry out, begging for him to open the door again and just let me fall into his arms. I sob, I cry, I hit the door with my bare fists, but nothing works.

I sit with the silence in the end. Scared that the walls were closing in, and that my breath was shortening with each passing second.

I don't know how long it was, but my questions were answered, I see the light peak through the door, that was now opening.

I see jace put a finger over his lips, telling me to shush my sobs, and stay quiet, and I did as told. I always did as I was told, but I always made mistakes.

He pulls me out, pulling me into a warm, long hug, and wrapping his arms around me so I couldn't escape. I hold onto him, gripping so tight that I was worried I might mark into his skin.

"it's okay, hes asleep out lulu." He whispers into my ear, as I rest my head on his shoulder as I let out soft sobs onto his shirt. Leaving a patch of damp.

His hand brushes my back, making its way up and down in a calming way, he makes me feel safe, jace is my safe place.

"paul is here and he wants to see you."

"What do you mean he's here?!. I can't see him jace!." I take a step back, dads been let out of prison. I cant.

I haven't seen him since that day. The day he got arrested, and I don't want to see him ever again, he took advantage of me when I was vulnerable, he doesn't love me, he just loves ruining me, and he knows it.

"I will be with you the whole time, he's not allowed any closer than 5 feet away, I promise, it'll be okay." I hear jaces voice in the distance, but all I can think about is what he did, flashbacks of the bruising and scars he caused.