Disease (Ponyboy Curtis)

-7-

Delilah's POV

I had waken up earlier then everyone else. Which i didn't mind at all. I sat on the back porch drinking coffee, it was a cold morning.

I heard the door open and saw Johnny sit next to me

"I wish I was as strong as the Earth" i said looking at the dew in the grass "What do you mean?" Johnny said looking at me confused.

"It has all these living things in it. Some strong some not. And it's insides get ruined. People litter, Cut down tree's. Even kill each other. But the Earth keeps going. Like it's just another problem" i said looking at the sun. I felt Johnny nod "It's like a human system, all the bad things in the world are virus trying to destroy a good working system. But there's something good fighting those virus' and saving the earth" i said

Johnny chuckled "Are we virus'? or The Cure?" he asked taking a sip of his coffee

I looked at him grabbing my mug "We my friend, are the cure" We clanked our mugs together and continued to watch the sun rise.

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Me and Johnny stayed at The Curtis' while Everyone was at school and work. I was in fine condition for school but Pony told Darry about how bad i was last night and he made me stay home.

I decided to clean the house for a surprise for the guys so they didn't argue about it anymore "Johnny turn on the radio" I said clearing off the counter.

He got up and put the radio on. Here It Goes Again by Ok Go was on and i flipped.

I jumped on the coffee table and danced like no one was watching. Even though i could see Johnny practically on the floor laughing.

He's laughing at how stupid you look

When the song ended i quickly turned off the radio and got off the table. Why does my mind have to ruin everything.

I don't ruin anything you ruin yourself. Kill yourself

Kill yourself. I let that phrase sink in. I shouldn't. Why?. Johnny waved his hand in front of my face and i snapped out of my daze "You okay?" he asked me. I dazed off for a minuet.

Am i okay?

No.

Yes?

"I don't know" i said snapping out of my gaze. I looked at Johnny's sad eyes and frowned "Really i don't know" I repeated. He nodded and smiled "I gottcha'" he said playfully punching my arm. I chuckled and looked up.

I heard someone run threw the door "De!" they held and felt someone land on top of me "Hi Ponyboy" i said gasping for breathe. He rolled off me and Johnny chuckled sitting back down on the couch "I got a car!" he yelled.

I looked at him wide eyed "You're kidding" i said. He grinned really bing and shook his head. I jumped up and looked outside. It was a ford truck, kinda like Darry's. My car was more like Two-Bit's. Pony grabbed my hand and yanked me off the porch to his car. He got in and i followed after him "Pony this is amazing" i said in awe

He looked at me "Wanna go for a ride?" he said and raised his eyebrows. I threw my head back and laughed "Yea let me go do something" i said hoping out. I ran into the house and kissed Johnny's forehead and hugged him "Thank you for being here for me" i said

He chuckled and hugged me back "I'm going on a ride with Pony okay? Will you be okay?" i asked. He playfully rolled his eyes "I'm a man!" he said puffing out his chest. I laughed and ran out the door. I jumped into his car and he smiled.

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We drove around the country in Windrixvill which was beautiful. I stuck my hand outside the window and took a deep breathe. It was so beautiful, I could just take a-million pictures out here. We took a back rode and parked at the train tracks.

We laid on the hood of his car and watched the sun go down. We had been out all day.

"You know, You've become really strong you know" Pony said looking at me. I closed my eyes and sighed.

Lying, He's just saying that. You're pathetic.

I opened my eyes "No i'm not, I'm pathetic" i muttered and looked at him. He rolled his eyes and got off the hood of his car "You would say that" he said facing me with his arms crossed. I jumped off the hood and copied his pose

"What the hell is that supposed to mean?" i snapped, he rolled his eyes again "You know the truth but you just avoid it. It's stupid. You let those dumb voices take control of you and hurt you. You don't even try to fix it. You just let it take control you and honestly it's really frustrating for me" he yelled.

"Are you kidding me?! I don't have a choice Ponyboy! I am stuck with these voices! You think i want them to take control?! You think i let them hurt me?! I don't! I don't have any goddamn control over my mind! And how is it frustrating for you?! You don't have someone telling you you're ugly, pathetic,stupid and worthless everyday? You don't have to listen to the phrase 'Kill yourself' everyday goddamnit!" i yelled back. I had my eyes squeezed shut as i yelled.

This was our first fight, and it was about the worst thing.

"It's frustrating for me cause I care so much for you and you just don't listen to me when i tell you you're pretty and smart and beautiful! You don't fucking listen!" he yelled back. I rolled my eyes and walked to the passenger side of the car. I looked at Pony angrily "I want to go home" i said blankly

"No, we need to work this out" he said standing stubbornly "Ponyboy Curtis, if you don't get in this car right now i will walk home without you" I snapped. He sighed and climbed into the car and i followed him.

He just doesn't understand.

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I walked into the house and everyone stared "How was it?" Two-Bit asked me not taking his eyes off the T.v, Everyone looked at me when i didn't say anything. I looked at Pony who looked down.

Nothing really? I scoffed and walked into my room making sure to slam the door.

You may think i'm being overreacting but honestly when you're in my shoes. This is the worst thing to argue about. He doesn't understand i can't control what these voices say. I paced around my room chewing my fingernails. Maybe i am overreacting.

"Hey can i come in?" i heard someone softly say. I looked at the door "Who is it" i said

"The president, It's Johnny Cade" he chuckled softly. I flung the door open and pulled Johnny in.

I started to ramble about the whole night and how i messed while Johnny sat down on the bed and i paced in front of him "I don't know Johnny Cade, i just have been so mixed up. With everything that has happened. My dad, the scratching, Darry winning me in court. I just screw everything up.. I'm a horrible person" I said sitting next to him and putting my hands in my face. He put his arm around me and pulled me close "You're not a horrible person Delilah, Everything will into place eventually, You just have to let it"

I looked up and stared straight ahead. I just have to let it?

I looked at Johnny "Can you go get Ponyboy for me?" i asked. He nodded and walked out the door.

I thought about what i was gonna say before the door opened "Hey, you asked for me.." Pony said awkwardly walking in.

I looked at him "I'm sorry, I overreacted about the whole thing I- I just, I don't know. I wish i could redo everything. I ruined it all, And i-" i was cut off by his lips on mine "It's fine Delilah. I love you no-"

"What?"