Disease (Ponyboy Curtis)

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Delilah's POV

I froze. No, No this isn't happen. He's not dead. My lip quivered and i made a whimpering sound in my voice "Johnny..." i said shaking his hand. I knew it would do no good. He was dead "Johnny, please don't die" I stood up and fumbled back but Pony caught me.

I didn't realize it but the gang was all there. All crying. Not as hard as me. I got my balance.

You did this. Kill yourself. You're worthless, You hurt everyone, You killed Johnny

I couldn't take this.

I was gonna do it.

Ponyboy's POV

Delilah just walked out. Sobbing. I tried to go after her but she had ran out and i couldn't see her. Then i remembered what she told me a when we got in that fight

You don't have to listen to the phrase 'Kill yourself' everyday goddammit!

I froze. I ran to the room with my dead bestfriend in it "We need to get home now" everyone looked at me but immediately knew what i was talking about.

I looked at Johnny one last time before walking away. My heart was braking and if she succeeded with this. I won't be able to breathe either.

We zoomed threw the streets looking for her to see if she didn't make it back to the house yet. But nope, she was no where to be seen. We approached the house. The lights were off. I began to panic. We jumped out of the car and ran to the front door. It felt like slow motion, everything felt unreal. The door was locked. Darry kicked at it as Soda and me pushed it. It eventually fell and the house was a mess. Everything was torn apart. I yelled out for her. Nothing.

We searched the house. I heard whimper come from the bathroom. With anger and fear i broke down the door. There she was, trying to break out her bottle of pills "It won't open!" she sobbed. I yanked it from her and the pills flew everywhere. She screamed in my face and i felt tears pour down my face "Look what you did!" she screamed. The gang rushed in and i fell into Soda's shoulder and cried my eyes out. I almost lost both my bestfriends in the same night.

Everyone was crying. Even Dallas.

Darry rushed over to her and she fell into his lap

"I just wanna die" Delilah cried against Darry's arm. I held my face in Soda shoulder. He choked out a sob and squeezed my shirt.

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Delilah was placed in a hospital for those types of things. I didn't know exactly what they were called but i wanted her out of there. She doesn't belong there. She needs it though. I haven't slept at all. Soda had cried himself to sleep all week and Darry pulled the recliner in the room to watch out for him. I still slept with him but had night terrors and would keep him up. They were all the same. I would find her dead in the bathroom. Scratches down her neck. Everywhere. I just wouldn't be able to save her in time.

We were going to come and get her today. I was nervous and looked bad but i didn't care. I was seeing my baby girl.

We tiredly pilled into the car. Darry yawned and closed his eye but opened them quickly "Darry i can drive.." i said and he shook his head "I'm alright, Just scared" he lied and i nodded. I just wanted to be there.

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While Darry talked to the doctor i sat impatiently waiting for her to come out. The doctor gave Darry s prescription medicine for her. She didn't need those. She's better. Right?. But then i saw her. Down the hall way. She had bags under her eyes and looked really skinny. I felt my heart break. She held her wrist in her hands and looked down. I just stood there like a log. I waited for her to notice me. She just didn't look up.