Disease (Ponyboy Curtis)

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Delilah's POV

"You got it?" Pony asked grabbing my hand and forearm. I smiled and nodded "Yea i got it" he let go and i walked. I wobbled a bit and he put his arms out to catch me. I chuckled and started walking.

I haven't walked in a while cause i couldn't leave the hospital bed. I limped into the truck with Pony on my arm. We sat down in the car "You ready Delilah" Darry said looking at me threw the rear view mirror. I nodded quickly "That hospital gave me the creeps" i said looking out of the window. Bye Johnny.

I looked back up and everyone was looking at me. I must have said goodbye out loud. I sighed and looked down "Hey, well see him soon.. It's okay" Pony said grabbing my hand. I nodded and looked at Darry there the rear view mirror "Can we go home now?" i asked quietly he nodded and started up the truck.

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It's been a week and I haven't been able to see Johnny. I was laying in my bed staring at the photo we took before the accident.

Your fault

No, It's not my fault. He saved me

When he's dead, you're gonna wish you were too.

He isn't gonna die.

I heard someone open the door and i looked up. Soda and Steve slowly walk into the door. I looked back at the picture "Hey.. We uh fixed your car for ya.." Steve said. I nodded "Thank's guys..." i said quietly "If you feel up to eating, There's some chocolate cake in the kitchen.." Soda said walking out after i nodded.

When they left i jumped up. I'm seeing Johnny. I grabbed my keys off my dresser and jumped out the window. I ran to my car and noticed Pony on the porch but kept running. He yelled for me to stop but it was to late. I was on my way to the hospital.

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I walked into the hospital quickly "I need to see Johnny Cade. I'm his sister" i said the lady smiled at me and gave me the room number. I rushed over to his room.

He was laying on the hospital bed lifeless. Was I too late?.

"Hey Johnny.." i said quietly. His eyes slowly opened "Hey De" he said weakly "You're out?" he asked and i nodded.

He had a neck brace and bruises all over his face and chest. He had stitches on his head and arm "This is all my fault.." i said quietly "No it's not. Don't say that, Don't even think that. That's your mind talking. You did nothing wrong" he paused and winced "You okay?" i asked getting worried "Yea i'm alright" he said trying to move.

I sighed and looked at him "Thanks, Stay strong okay. I couldn't live without you.." i said with tears brewing in my eyes "I'll be alright.. I love you De" he smiled and i nodded "I love you too Johnny" i said before kissing his head as he fell asleep.

I knew we both meant by friends. We love each other like brother and sister. I walked to the front entrance and saw Ponyboy sitting in the waiting room. I looked at him and he looked back at me "Let's go before Darry flips out on me more" i said grabbing his hand and walking away "He won't i told him we were going to the Park" he said following me. I looked at him and smiled.

"To the park we go"

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We laid in the spot where he asked me out "How's Johnny?" he asked while drawing circles on my arm as i laid on his shoulder "He's said he's doing okay, But he looks dead" i sighed and he looked at me "He's gonna make it, he could stand threw anything" Pony said kissing my head. I looked up at him and kissed his lips.

We kissed for a long time. Till i pulled apart out of breathe "I love you so so much" i said breathlessly "I love you too" He chuckled. I stood up and he followed behind me. He grabbed my hand and we walked back to the car.

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I sat in my room playing with the polaroid picture. My head started to hurt.

Stupid girl, You'll never be good enough

Why are you still alive

No one wants you

Scratch.

I put my face in my hands and took a deep breathe. Don't do it. Count. You can do this. Don't scratch. Don't let it take control. But it was to late.

I ran into the bathroom. I turned on the shower and took off my clothes. Don't do it. Take it off you're mind. I sat in the shower. I can't hold back. I started to scratch my neck. I watched the blood poor into the water. I cried silently. I hate my life. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it.

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It's been another week and i have been seeing Johnny everyday. Thankfully they let me in every time i come into the hospital. The gang has come up there, but i go up there everyday.

The day had gone by fast, so we were all sitting at the dinner table. Silently. Pony held my hand under the table. I played with food. I wasn't hungry, I lost my appetite. Johnny looked really pale, Horrible pale. He could barely keep his eyes opened. It's okay. People say he can make it. He can make it.

The phone started ringing and Darry got up to answer it "You not hungry there Delilah?" Soda said. I shrugged "No.."

Darry ran into the kitchen and grabbed his jacket "We're going to the hospital" he said out of breathe looking at me. I jumped up and grabbed Johnny's jacket and rushed out the door with everyone else.

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We rushed to Johnny's room but slowed down when we approached him. Darry called the gang over to the hospital. He didn't tell us what was going on. The whole car ride here was quiet.

"Hey Johnny.." i said softly. He didn't have his neck brace on. And his heart rate was slow "Hey De.." i saw tears brew in his eyes "I'm not gonna make it.." he muttered and a tear fell from his eye. I grabbed his hand, tears threatening to pour.

"No, d-don't say that, You're gonna be alright. Please don't say that.." i said. A tear poured down my cheek and i squeezed his hand "Delilah" he said weakly, I leaned in closer

"No matter" he gulped "What you're voices say, You're beautiful" he said with a small smiled and squeezed my hand. I smiled small but choked out a sob "Remember, Everything will fall into place eventually, You" he took a deep breathe and a tear strolled down his cheek "You just have to let it" and that was it.

Right then

Right there

Johnny Died.