I thought we were just friends?

Part 12

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I stand in the shower with Colby as we chat about random things "You look good." I say drawing shapes on his abs "Thank you baby" he smiles laying his head on my shoulder. I begin to think about when I went to the store the other day reading the small package "4 Blades in box." "DO NOT HAVE NEAR CHILDREN!" "Be careful when using said item." "Baby!" "Baby!" Colby exclaims shaking my shoulder "what?" I mumble getting out of my thought "You okay?" He asks "just lost in thought." I mumble again.

I stand in the bathroom as everyone is out having fun and I look at the box I brought into the bathroom with me "The fuck is wrong with me." I ask myself opening the small box "No going back." I mumble. I slip my pants down past my thigh and I sit on the counter "Fuck." I whisper feeling how cold the blade feels on my skin. "Ouch fuck!" I yell as I cut my thigh "Shut up!" I yell covering my mouth,I hear a car pull up and I quickly wipe my leg and grab some new pants from accidentally getting blood on my other ones "I'm home!" Someone yells and I quickly pull up my pants "Shit shit shit!" I mumble thinking of somewhere to hide the blade "There!" I yell running to Colby's bed,I get on the floor and find a notebook I used at school and hide it in the pages quickly shoving it back under the bed. "Baby?" Colby asks coming in the door and I quickly throw myself on his bed "I thought you were gonna go hang out with Jillian?" He asks "She had plans." I say trying my hardest not to stutter cause I know when I'm super nervous I stutter "Oh I'm sorry for leaving you at home all day then" he says with a pout "It's okay" I say nervously "Well I came to drop off some of my shit I'm gonna go get Brennen to hang out here okay?" He says "Okay thanks for the heads up" I say "I'll be back I love you" he smiles "Love you too" I smile back and then he leaves. I change into a different shirt and pants since I was warm in my pants "Leggings are thin right?" I ask myself "Yeah.." I trail off. I put on the leggings and put on a cute T-shirt of mine and sit back down waiting for Colby. "The wedding is in a couple days and we want you to come honey." "I don't want too." "You can bring your friends anybody just please come to the wedding." "Fine what's the theme or whatever." "Light blue for the bridesmaid and the groomsmen are wearing blue tuxedos nothing to long okay? "Okay thanks I guess." "Okay honey I love you and I can't wait to see you." "Okay bye." I hang up my phone and look at Colby "What?" He asks "My parents want me to go to there wedding." I sigh "Are you gonna go?" He asks "I guess I'm bringing you though" I add making his face drop "Do I have to?" He whines "Yes and tomorrow I'm going dress shopping" I say "I assume I have to come for a tuxedo?" He mumbles "Yes" I say making him whine again.

I walk into the dress shop with the girls to find the right dress for all of us. "Can we see your blue dresses?" Devyn asks "Right this way." The woman smiles leading us to the dresses "Oh my god!" Tara squeals finding a dress "I like this!" She says looking at me "I'm gonna keep looking" I say beginning to look at other dresses. I look in the mirror to see the beautiful dress I put on going to my knees "I like this one." I say "Hold on Tara's gotta see this!" Devyn says grabbing Tara "Get here now." Tara says stern then hanging up the phone "You look sexy!" Tara squeals "Baby!" Colby yells walking to the back "Hey!" I smile "Fuck." He mumbles placing his hands on my hips "You like it?" I ask "Fuck yeah I do." He mumbles again wrapping his arms around my waist "You look so fucking hot." He whispers kissing my neck "No no no!" Tara says "Not right now!" Devyn exclaims.

I stand there as people walk down the aisle finally seeing my mother making me frown since I didn't wanna here in the first place. "You are now husband and wife you may kiss the bride!" The man yells and then my parents kiss cheers going around the crowd "Honey I'm so glad you came." My mom smiles "Hi baby oh shit sorry" he says realizing im in a conversation "Your welcome mom." I sigh "Go play around with your friends foods almost done." Mom smiles walking to a small table "Hi baby." I smile turning around "You look so sexy in this dress." He mumbles connecting our lips.I begin to feel his hand run up my thigh making me nervous so I grab his hand guiding it to my hip and he slides it to my ass "fuck baby." He groans "Hey- never mind!" Jake says then walking away "S-Stop baby there's p-people." I stutter "Come on let's go to the bathroom it won't hurt." He whispers in my ear making me shiver "Later okay?" I whisper resting my forehead against his "Promise?" He asks "Promise." I smile pecking his lips "Sit on my lap?" He whispers "Come on." I giggle leading him to the table we're supposed to sit at. "Done sucking each others faces off?" Jake asks "Whatever!" I laugh sitting on Colby's lap "Jesus baby." He groans in my ear making me flustered. While I talk to Jake,Colby kisses my neck super close to my sweet spot and he grips my thigh every now and again "Baby." I warn "Hm?" He hums looking at me "To close." I whisper "Whatever" he mumbles "Sorry continue talking" I say to Jake "Anyways what I was saying" he continues as he talks I bite my lip feeling Colby suck on my sweet spot "Can y-you not p-please." I say to Colby "I don't give a fuck it's not my family" he mumbles "Then quit cause mom and dad will yell at me." I say "Fine." He says. I start to talk to Tara who's across from Jake when I feel Colby kissing my neck again "I said quit." I say stern "What are you gonna do about it?" He asks getting up in my face "Don't start Colby I didn't wanna come in the first place I'm already in a bad mood and I don't want it worse." I say "Don't start Colby" he mocks "I'm not dealing with your shit today." I say getting up off his lap "I'm not dealing with your shit today" he mocks again "Go fuck yourself!" I scream stomping off. "Hey Stacy!" I smile greeting my cousin "Sam I missed you!" She smiles hugging me "So I heard about the special man" she says giving me an obvious look "His name is Colby the brunette over there by Tara." I point "I've noticed that you always choose brunettes" she says "Brunettes are hot" I say with a shrug "I love your dress though" she smiles "Thank you!" I smile "I'm gonna help everyone with the food though love you Sam" she says "okay I love you too" I say beginning to walk off. I come back to the table and sit by Jake staring at Colby in the process "Fuck you." He mouths "Come fuck me yourself asshole." I mouth. While staring at Colby,Stacy comes back starting to talk to me "What's going on?" She asks standing behind me "He's just being an asshole." I say with a small smirk "Your the one being an asshole." He says raising his voice "Don't raise your voice." I say in stern tone making him mumble something under his breath "So?" He says "Colby let's go talk shall we?" I say getting up "Let's just go." He grumbles getting up himself. We get outside to talk noticing there a bunch of other people out here so we have to try not to yell "The fuck is your problem?!" I ask trying not to raise my voice "You don't let me do anything anymore!" He says throwing his hands up "Well I don't want my fucking family seeing me like that they would never live it down!" I say loudly causing others to look at me "I don't give a fuck if I'm in front of your family!" He yells "Don't fucking yell at me!" I scream "What if I do?!" He yells again "Quit acting like a fucking child!" I scream "I'm not acting like a damn child!" He yells "Grow up for fucks sake!" I scream pushing him slightly "Go home if your gonna act like this!" I scream "What no it's a damn wedding!" He shouts "Start acting like fucking seventeen year old then!" I scream going inside. I walk to Stacy since she was looking for me and we talk acting as if I didn't go outside and yell at Colby. I glance over at the table and see Colby crying as Jake and Corey try to comfort him and my eyes start to get glossy "excuse me I'll be back." I mumble walking to the bathroom. I cry trying to text Tara and Devyn but failing from shaking a lot "Sam?" Stacy asks "I'm i-in here." I stutter "Don't cry okay?" She says "Can you g-get Tara and D-Devyn?" I ask "Of course I'll be back." She says I listen to the door close as she walks away. "Sam?" Tara asks "Hey don't cry he's upset too we talked to him." Devyn says "Why is he upset?" I ask coming out of the stall wiping off mascara "We can't tell you that but let us fix your makeup." Tara says. I sit on the counter as they fix my makeup "Done!" Devyn smiles "Thank you guys" I say with a small smile "Come on foods done" They say leading me out of the bathroom. I eat my food listening to Jake talk to Corey while everyone around us talks to one another and I look at Colby "The fuck are you looking at." He mumbles "I'm sorry for what I said." I whisper looking at him again "Me too." He mumbles again "They told me your upset what's wrong?" I whisper "I've got a lot on my mind can we talk about this later?" He mumbles his eyes filling with tears "Yeah that's fine." I whisper with a small smile "Thanks for understanding." He whispers "Of course." I smile pressing a small kiss on his cheek. "What was it you wanted to talk about?" I ask getting a pair of pajamas from the closet "Can we talk about us?" He asks getting up "Yeah of course baby" I say nervously. "I feel like you've been very secretive lately and you won't tell me things." He says his eyes filling with tears "And you keep yelling at me over stupid things. Your such a force." He says with a frown "and you take up a lot of space." He adds "I feel like I don't deserve you." He says making my heart drop "A-Are you breaking u-up with me?" I ask in a hushed tone "No I'm not it's just..we need to fix things." He mumbles "O-Oh.." I trail off "Please don't get the wrong idea baby." He says grabbing my hand "I-I'm not." I mumble.