Simon 'Ghost' Riley x female reader OneShots

Argument

                                         
      !(Slight)MENTIONS OF SELF HARM!

Y/ns pov:
"Why would you do that?!" I yelled at Simon as i got into our bed room
"He had no right"  Simon said simply while removing his watch
I could tell he had an annoyed expression under his mask by his eyes
"And you do?!" I yelled again
we were supposed to go out and have fun
but Simon couldn't control his anger
he only sighed and sat on the couch near our bed
"We were supposed to have fun!" i yelled again
"Will you stop yelling?" Simon said raising his voice a little bit but not to the point it was a yell
"Seriously!? Thats all you have to say?" I said
"I guess" he said without even looking at you
He was irritating you but he didn't know that
He never wanted to upset you
but he couldn't handle the fact that some random guy touched you and tried to get to know you
He was already alert when he saw the guy walking in your way
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I sat at the table and waited for simon to come back
His seat infront of me was empty
Suddenly out of no where a guy came and sat in his seat
"Hey.." he said and pushed a strand of my hair behind my ear
I raised my eyebrow at him in surprise
"Whats your name gorgeous?" He said
"What are you doing here alone sweetheart?"
I was shocked I couldn't even answer
I saw simon walking towards us
"What the hell is going on?!" Simon said
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You appreciated that he was worried for you
Maybe a few slaps on the guys face would've been enough
But simon almost killed him
He leaned foward on the couch and placed his elbows on his knees while holding his hands
Still not looking at me
"I barely get to see you and when i do your either sleeping or working and when we have the time to go out you do this! You ruin everything!!" I yelled still irritated
but I realised what i said
that was bad...
I shouldn't have said any of that
I didn't mean it!
He looked at me
i felt bad
He looked hurt and mad
"I-" i tried to speak but be cutt me off
"Im gonna take a shower" he said as he got up from the couch and sighed
He was covered in blood
"Simon i didn't mean that sweetheart" i said while looking at him a little worried
there was no way that was gonna make him feel better what i said was horrible
He just nodded his head and went into the bathroom
Gosh
no no no no no no no no no no
I didn't mean that
I sat on the same place he was sitting earlier and sighed while holding my head i was getting dizzy
i got up to take a shower
I got my pj's and towel and went to the other bathroom to shower
After 10 minutes I finished showering i went into the room and Simon was still showering i could tell by the water sounds
I sighed and put on my clothes
I did my skin and hair care routine
I brushed my teeth
And he still wasn't out the shower
i brushed my hair and decided to wait for him to get out
*20 minutes later*
He still wasn't out hes been in there for almost an hour and i was starting to get worried
what if hes hurting himself?
that thought came to me and it brought tears to my eyes with it
I immediately got up once I thought of that
I knocked on the bathroom door aggressively
"Simon are you okay in there sweetie?!" I yelled for him to hear me
"Yes" he said roughly
I stayed silent for a moment not knowing what to say next
"Whats taking you so long?" I asked
"I'll be out there in a minute" he said
"ok..." i said
I walked towards our bed and sat on it waiting for him
i let out about 20 sighs while doing so
After 10 minutes I finally hears the door click
I looked up and saw him he wasn't wearing his mask and he wasn't wearing a shirt either
he walked out the bathroom and closed the door behind him after closing the lights
The urge of wanting to get up and squish him washed over me
I could tell tat the bathroom was foggy from the moment he opened the door
i saw a little
He had a hot shower
he took a glance at me and put his shirt that was in his hand on and he walked over to the closet and opened the drawer that had his socks in it he took a pair and sat on my vanity chair side ways while putting them on
I only looked at him not knowing what to do now
I watched him as he stood up and took some deodorant and put some on
then he took his face cream and applied it to his face
He had to sit down for him to see his face so he did
he rubbed the cream into his face
Meanwhile while he did that i got up and walked to him
while he was busy rubbing his cream i hugged him from behind and placed my head on his back
he didn't react to that
i continued to hug him
My hands wrapped around his waist i reached my hand and began to rub his stomach
Giving him something like an ab  message
and i watched from under his arm as he got out his hand cream and rubbed it in his hands
I love my clean man
"Are you alright?" He suddenly asked while looking at me through the mirror
I smiled at him and nodded
He got up from the chair making my arm go loose from his waist
I stayed there standing a little hurt
he walked to the bed and laid down on his usual spot
I turned off the lights and I walked to our bed and laid down next to him facing him he was looking down at his feet that were barely covered from the blanket
You don't know why but him looking down always broke you
"Simon.." i said
he looked up at me to show that he was listening to what i had to say
"Im sorry for what i said earlier...i promise i didn't mean any of it" i said to him
"I told you it's alright" he said giving me a slight glare and turning around to face the other side
His back to my face now
I felt bad for him
It's all my fault
He never ever made me feel bad or ever hurt me
i know it's not alright
what i said was not alright especially to him
He was an over thinker
he could be thinking of all kinds of things about himself
I rubbed his back gently from behind him
i didn't know what else to do at this point
"Good night i love you" i said
he didn't say anything
Doesn't he love me back though?
Does he not love me anymore?
So he like hates me now?
I probably ruined the whole relationship...
Uh-oh god
i never got such thoughts
Like i never actually imagined me and him breaking up
It never came to my mind
and right now it came
I began to panic
I didn't want that to happen
Tears fell down my eyes as i kept thinking of it
Being alone once again
i cried silently i placed my hand over my mouth to not let out any noise
i didn't want to make him think im gonna emotionally manipulate him by crying now
I turned to the other side and cried my self to sleep
Making sure I wasn't making any noise though

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                                                                        Ghosts pov:
"Goodnight i love you" she said while rubbing my back gently
i didn't answer her
I was hurt and i didn't know what to say to that right now
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I wanted to tell her i loved her to but it was too late for that now
It's been like 3 minutes since she said it
I heard her turn to the other side of the bed
i felt bad...
but what she said genuinely hurt me
I knew it
I knew i ruin everything
I don't deserve her love
I will never be worthy of love
I knew at some point i was gonna do this
That at some point im gonna screw it up
i also felt bad for ignoring her
she tired to make it up to me by saying sorry and giving me some sort of affection
I could tell she genuinely felt sorry
i began to think about it
She already said it
there was no going back in time
All she could do is apologize and she did that
Maybe i should just forgive her
she did say she didn't mean it
I really hope she didn't
She was worried for me when i was in the bathroom
*1 hour later*
Im tired of thinking
I turned around and her back was facing me like I expected
i think she's asleep
i sat up carefully and leaned in a little to see
she was asleep
Awesome what do i do now
I laid back down and played with her hair
"What if she doesn't wake up tomorrow?"
What the f**k?
That thought came out of nowhere
"Who knows? This could probably even be your last hour with her"
no no no
I didn't like these thoughts
"Think about it"
I don't want to
It was like my heart and my brain we're arguing
And guess what..
I began to think about it
*30 minutes later*
My tears fell
i've been imagining her death and crying stupidly even though shes right infront of me breathing
her funeral and what her grave would look like and how she could possibly die
or me trying to wake her up and she won't budge
that one got to me
i placed my hand on her stomach to make sure she was breathing
and i felt her body moving up and down gently indicating that she was infact breathing
I placed my hand on her chest and felt her heart beat
It was adorable
her heart beating gently
i felt happy and excited as i felt it
I felt warm and safe feeling it
I decide to go back to sleep
Thinking that she should be the one to make it up to me
but i couldn't sleep
The thought of her dying haunted me
i wasn't gonna let my ego win this
I decided to wake her up and tell her it's okay
I sat up and leaned over again
I bent my head down and kissed her rosy cheek
she was still asleep
"Y/n" i said
She didn't wake up
i began to shake her gently
she only leaned forward till she stuffed her face in the pillow and turned to sleep on her
stomach
"Y/n" i said again
she still wasn't awake
i sighed
I tapped on her head
She still wasn't moving
Is she actually dead!?
I started to sweat a little getting panicked
"Y/n!" I said and lightly smacked her back
She moved a little and turned her head to me once she noticed
"What? What happened?" She said as she sat up and rubbed her eyes looking around
i guess i scared her
i was relieved though seeing her move and talk after all those thoughts of her dying
"Nothing calm down" i said looking at her
she was no longer tensed and began to yawn
She looked at me
"Are you okay? Why did you wake me up?" She said and cupped my face
I almost completely melted at that
"no reason i just wanted to tell you it's okay" i said while staring at her almost glaring
i was speaking to her coldly and shooting glares at her like i haven't been imagining her death and sobbing
She kept looking at me
"Are you sure?" She asked me
I nodded
"Im sorry for making it a big deal" i said
"don't say that..you shouldn't be the one apologizing sweetheart" she said and pulled me into a hug
She put my head on her chest and wrapped her arms around my neck while stroking my head and giving it a peck
I wasn't very used to this position but it was ok
It was pretty comfortable and relaxing to be honest
So i stayed here and wrapped my arms around her waist
"Im sorry for what i said earlier Simon...I promise you, i really, really, didn't mean any of it" she said
"It's alright" i said
"Do you believe i didn't mean any of it?" She asked to make sure
"Yes love" i said and lifted my head off her chest and kissed her cheek and going back to laying my head in her chest
"Good" she said still stroking my head
"Im sorry for what happened to you earlier to, I should've never left you alone" i said
"It's ok it's not your fault honey don't blame it on yourself , you really did not let that slide though" she said and chuckled
I chuckled with her
She continued to stroke my head and kissing it
while she did that I eventually fell asleep in her arms

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