𝘋𝘳𝘶𝘨 𝘢𝘥𝘥𝘪𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯

11

𝘚𝘦𝘬𝘢𝘯𝘪 𝘔𝘢𝘳𝘲𝘶𝘢𝘯 𝘚𝘮𝘪𝘵𝘩
𝘋𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘢𝘴, 𝘛𝘦𝘹𝘢𝘴

It's still been a while since we've heard from Tashara. I never got a new phone so I've just been here.

Sometimes I catch myself falling asleep in front of her house just to see if she'll come home eventually.

I don't sleep long at all because I don't want to miss catching her.

She promised she wasn't going to leave me, where is she now? She's fucking gone.

With not a single trace as to where she went nor did she tell anyone.

Her and Hayleigh share locations.. I need to go see about that.

I drove to E house and knocked. He opened the door looking pissed.

"Nigga what happened to you? You can't answer the phone and you don't even be home when I pull up there."

"Phone broke. Hayleigh here?" He nodded. "She upstairs."

I looked at him dumb. "Nigga go get her."

He disappeared while I sat on the couch. All that's been on my mind this whole month is Tashara.

"You've seen or heard from Tasha?" She asked me. She looked a mess.

Her hair was undone, her eyes were puffy with dark circles and bags. She looked like she hasn't even got out of the bed since Tasha went missing.

I felt bad.

I've cried a few times myself, how could I let a female get this close to me, just to up and disappear?

"No but you have her location. You looked at it at all?"

She shook her head no and went upstairs to come back with her phone.

Her location was at her house. But we're both sure she's not home.

"Let's go break into her house to see if she's there." E suggested.

Anything to find her.

We headed to her house and Ithan tried picking her locks. "This shit hard. What the fuck?"

It was blood on her door.

After a while, he got it open. We went in and seen blood everywhere. Hayleigh started to cry.

"Yo, take her to the car. She shouldn't have to see all this." I said.

I kept going through the house, seeing more blood everywhere I went.

I reached her room and all I seen were pills and more blood all over her room.

What the fuck happened here?
Did she kill herself?
Did someone else kill her?
Is she even dead?

More questions filled my mind as I stayed in. I spotted her phone on her bed.

Everything is here but Tashara.

Where is Tashara?

I looked at her phone seeing my text messages. I sent last week.

𝘉𝘰𝘰𝘨❤️

𝘈𝘯𝘴𝘸𝘦𝘳 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘱𝘩𝘰𝘯𝘦
𝘵𝘦𝘹𝘵 𝘮𝘦 𝘣𝘢𝘤𝘬

𝘛𝘢𝘴𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘢 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘵?
𝘈𝘵 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘵 𝘭𝘦𝘵 𝘮𝘦 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘺𝘰𝘶'𝘳𝘦 𝘨𝘰𝘰𝘥

𝘔𝘢𝘮𝘢 𝘐'𝘮 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘥 𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘱𝘰𝘯𝘥

I don't know why I felt the need to apologize. Maybe because I feel like I could've done more to help.

I just couldn't bare to lose her. I stopped drinking lean and popping percs because of her.

To relapse because of her disappearance shows me how much she actually meant to me.

I never thought I'd lose her.

E came into the room next to me. Also hugging me. I let the tears fall out of my eyes, I actually think I was falling in love with her.

All I could think about was the worst that could've possibly happened.

That she's dead somewhere.

He pulled me out of her room. We left her house. There's nothing that could have prepared me to see what I seen.

The fact that she's possibly dead and never coming back started to weigh heavy on my mind.

I called my mom notifying her that I'll be coming over to talk. When I pulled up she was sitting there with her tea and I smelled food in the air.

I just didn't have an appetite to eat anything.

"Hey baby, what's wrong? Come here." She pulled me into a hug. I really cried on my mom's shoulder.

"Shhh." She rubbed my back as I cried.

"I should've done more to help. I should've made sure she was okay. It's so much I should've done but I didn't do it."

I was so mad at myself.

"No don't blame yourself. It's not your fault. I promise it's not your fault." She continued rubbing my back.