8:00AM
Even though I wakeup with deep headache, still dress myself to islamiyya come down to greet mama asabe and told her to cook right for them while kultum to warm the tuwo for me.
I waited in the car for 5min before John came and inform me that his boss said nobody to touch the car. I hiss checking my bag and thank god their is some change. I walk to the gate and gate a napepe.
Today class was still on kitabul zawjani and our hadda. Before the end of the class, I phone mallam salisu our napepe driver to come and pick me. Gladly he came on time as always, I drop hanifa home and head home too.
I told mallam salisu to go and come back because I want to send food to maimu.
Immediately I enter inside, dropping my back to the kitchen, set on pepper soup, fruits and chips. All done around with their help.
8PM
I pray and bath after finishing with mallam salisu. I get my phone and call back the missed called of yesterday starting with ummah in the first ring!
Umma ina wuni!!
Maryam what happens yesterday, I didn't see you at the house?
Umma makaranta naje!
Maryam what's wrong, I can feel it from your voice?
It nothing umma kaina ke ciwo.
Alright rest your head nana will come tomorrow insha Allah..
After umma, I call adda..
Maryam what happens to you and your phone yesterday?
Nothing adda! I went islamiyya.
Are you sure is not the stitches? And how was it now? Hope you are better?
A'a! And I heal completely!
But that is not the reason for you not to come and specially for nana and we are cousin maryam of same blood sister.
Did you know how much pain you cause mami yesterday from daddy side and by now you know them better as it happens in your house already. And also about that status with ground and caption mami didn't like it all, because she seem there must be something and set me to ask you.
But as you said, and your voice Maryam, what wrong? Tell me! did you have a fight? Definitely there must be something. I know how my brother can be in all time but alast for mami shake, if not for anty hafsa please..
Adda kaina Kevin ciwo! Shikenan sai da safe.
Immediately I drop the phone, after finishing my cry that make everybody feel sorry for me, which I hate and even hate the life lives as even my family feel that for me to sleep with empty stomach..
MONDAY
1:00PM
Like umma said nana came but didn't ought single word to me nor my way. Just pressing her phone.
Nana am sorry about yesterday, I got carry away. I signed going to check on the food I left on fire when adda announce herself. "Adda".I hug the kids holding their hand to the kitchen.
Oga wife, what is popping ,the food smell good!.
After I check on the food,I arrange the snack I have on the tray which sliced cake,ice cream for the kids,samosa,meat pie to them.
Walahi you will be the one to take my kids to the hospital. I laughed toh naji.
I heard your friend give birth, remind you, what happen you didn't go? Despite the friendship you share and mainu of all peoples haba mairo?
My heart almost panic because I don't want to talk about it with anyone.
Uhmm.. I was not feeling way that day.
But maryam said you call and told her that you are going because she even call nana but later on you told her kin fasa!
Right nana?
Adda please step me out of there, isn't in my position to be or know.
Hajiya nana, I said am sorry, it not like they start your wedding banje ba, is just lefe so please you can't come here and refuse to talk to me, you know that not fair right?
Exactly maryam! Same way happen too and if by any chance you thinks I came here because of you then you are totally wrong because this is my brother house and money can come at anytime of my wanting and go...
Nana!!!! Is me maryam, the same maryam you gave a shoulder to lane on 10years ago!same maryam with no world of her own. But anyway you are totally right,your brother house, anytime and am sorry for forgetting my limits and standards of where I came from or whatever we have.
I thought to never interpret between the two of you,to solve it round yourself, but you are taking it wrongful way or the other. And nana apologies to her or both to each other, we are all family's. Now!!!
Adda said in a commendable ways but to no avail.
I pack the used plate and bring the new one with the foods, rice,stew,salad,fish and zobo...
Walk to my room where I cry out, because am confused, was this a misunderstanding or I get it right? And even if that is? Then why should I be sorry for myself, well she is right, I was her brother wife,his house and money. I forget my limits of where I came from, looking around the room I was staying calling it my room, thought me that even my late parents cannot afford this. I own them alot all my life and thank to her. What am wearing were not suppose to be on me, it means for people like them.
Me!maryam aminu mai turare, my body was not supposento be the way it is now,how can I forget the home I came from, a house of rug balancing my body with tile house and nanny's ordering them around! How can I forget all those night wash and early water fetching. Truly I deciver myself for having everything as mine!!! A brother wife can't balance like this will she? Specially of a low standard " my head ring to one provert talaka bai iya samun wuri ba and that is what happen to me for forgetting where I came from or who am i. All alone i was speaking to myself, dont know the tear of truth and reality was dipping from my eyes uncontrollable.
The cracking of the door was what made me quickly clean my tears, resting my head on my folded legs.
Ke maryam!!! Raise your head and look at me now!! Who told you all this stupid stuffs you are circling and tidings to yourself!? What did you think will happen if mami find out or anyone, so all this while you means mami hold you for her own self or benefit for her son? And who told you that your life will be ours? Whether we becomes cousin or not maryam, life will always give you what his plan on. And what bought all this long essay and debating? If that is the case then am also very hurt in you and right this instant am going to call the husband or the brother you are all hyping to and tell him.
Nana was angry, she should not say what she said.
Oh wait!!!! So now I understand everything and where it come from. That's when I look at her with my swallow eyes.
So you refuse to come because kamal stop you from going to your friend place, she now I get it, so you have a fight like I been thinking all this while and you decide to hurt him by not coming. Kaii yaranan Allah ya shiryeki but this is not a way to punish or hurt your husband my dear because you have hurt everybody feelings and even cause fight between you two yanzu.
Kamal is not like every other person, we know you also deal and patience with him. But this.
Damn.. I know it,kamal will never let you go, shegen kulle. I swipe my face to other sides when a hand touch me and I don't have to tell is nana.
Maryam, I understand what you go through but friend are just friend and can go anytime but me I will forever remember what you did to me. And that is not a reason. And all these word you said it you not me because I didn't means my word so then am not going to apologise..........................................
It long but I cry writing this chapter!!!
Today nana and maryam broke which cause maryam pains of 10years ago
