Immediately they arrive homes, she walk straight to her room which she now call dakin aro" and clear everything that is never her to be replaced with the one her grandmother bought for her......
What ever I did, I keep reminding myself that this is not the standard I grow up, it's not mine and money and!!!and I have to work for it......
I was so deep cleaning the room when he came in with try of food.. taking seat on the bed..
Come here!
I quickly did as he said because it's own money and house!" Eat your food then will go out okay! I look at him down to the plate and that reminds me back home my parent never have that money to buy me this kind of food to eat or the glass plate! I signed" bana jin yunwa" what did you eat? Biscuits!
Is Biscuits food?"
To cut the tension, I collect the food and eat half before I puck it all out in the restroom! After cleaning myself, I came out and lay on the pray mat I left and what shock is he bought down one pillow from the bed and rest his head beside me.
Why are you been stubborn?
Can I ask you something? Uhm!
May I know how much is that school fee form? And why is that?
I don't deserve to have that school not even the form too only peoples from hig.....
I don't get to finish the word when he cover his mouth with mine for few seconds looking directly into my eyes which I cannot explain anything.
And who bad mouth you this?
Because nana said it and she's right I should remain in my place!!!
Rest your head will discuss abouts it later" and I miss my old Maryam but not this new now hear.
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Like a sky, every night I wake up and prayer till I was able to find peace and adjust the situation of life I found myself into. This past 5 days, I make sure I cook and clean for him in their own city style and to say I didn't submit myself to him is a lie because he pay for his with it" money" and nothing change because I still morning the pain but unlike before and anytime it came, I welcome it with heart. Anytime word from him was blessings "Allah ya miki albarka"
So he ask me to get ready for his friends house with I wore one cloth of my mother with my hijab and somehow i feel so good to be my old self again..
To my surprise he pack at one estate, he pass me a bag full of clothes before the door open and it's maimu house.
I stay for 3hour before he pick me up to Dr kb house to finally meet amani and her mum. Along the way" you don't have to please me, I was meant to please you and am sorry for my attitude the other day........
Amani and her mum are cute and very welcome family,as we stay there till after isha.
9:00PM
Immediately we came back, I change to wrapper and shirt taking my new sleeping position which is the ground. I arrange the pillow according to him too also sleep down.
Few days adda came even though I try to put myself in her position, she being her drama as always and left. And the other days he take me to mami which I stop calling her umma since. Not like I enjoy everything they did or give there but I tell myself, this is the home they give me shelter with ther money and house anytime!
As for nana I make sure to never put myself in her shoe again, not like we didn't talk we did but not like before with greeting only while I stay with hameeda and fauziyyah with are my low standard. And I can feel it in me that nana wanted to say something but whatever it's, we are not from the same level anymore.
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This past week I been home in the room,when it islamiyya time I will go and come, and still do my duties. Expect for this week which I fall terribly sick on admitted now and that was the day he suppose to leave for his work place, he cancelled it for 2 day
I suffer shivering fever with lot of margin and nausea.
Dr farida was cheering my mood.
Amarya mun hadu ko zamuyi fadan ne? Am not in her stage now because of how I feel, everything I ate becomes trash in 15min.
At the hospital mami came to stay before adda came, same nana was there trying to be the helpful person before the results came out.
THURSDAY
5:00PM
Coming out from the bathroom about to pick up my scraf from the ground when I hear" lemme get it for you!
No thank you, I can managed, you don't have to stree yourself for me. I said smiling and the next thing that came to her mouth sock me" are you still angry at me?can't a sister forgive her other half?sisters are made to fight and I never had that one between, so why are you trying to take that away from me?
Am sorry maryam please forgive me!!
The next thing she was a hug, thinking whether to touch her or not, because I imput now are that of my late mother not what they bought with the money they fight me with. I touch back " it long gone and forgetting on that same day.
How can I hold big girl in poor heart of mine never! As I take the seat on the bed, sametime him, adda and mami walk in. While I was trying to puck out the food I ate.
The nurse inject last drug on the cannula attach to my hand while Dr farida taste as always" amarya jiki yayi sauki ko?
Eh!
How are you feeling, no pain or anything?
Just the nausea.
Insha Allah you will soon past it shima.
The test results is out mama, she had malaria and a month pregnant.
Amarya, you and your husband must gave me a gift.
I look at her to my dustbins before I trash the last thing on my Tommy laying down, that's when he look at me face to eyes.....
Isn't like I did hear her, I did .
Ayi raino lafiya, sai anzo aternal kuma, can't wait for the first ultrasound.
I will send your discharge paper now!!
Mama let her rest before you leave.
Mama maryam and daddy yaya,!!! Am so happy to be an aunt!!..........
What's maryam word in the pregnancy?
Nana's appertaining?
Money and house child on the way....
