Seem like my plan of escaping didn't work, I face the other side unbottle and suck it in her mouth.
The moment her mouth suck, I feel very unfair towards, because it been 5since I breastfed her, my poor ummah she doesn't cry unless the thing mix her also.
Are you peoples done or not yet?
Before I could reply he was already in front facing me, which made me feel uncomfortable I'm my doing.
Am not doing anything, clam down, am going out.
Okay! What is this?
Babu komai?
Are you sure? Because I can see you have something in your mouth to say!
I made transfer to your account, if anything!
I mutter Alhamdillah with signed.
I didn't know the courage in my mouth" where are you going?
He look me straight to face 'to collect the documents for.. anywhere it's a surprise for you!
Are you sure?
You don't trust me?
No..I..! It okay I understand you these days, Clam down am not going to any girl, even if I have to then it most be you.
When did you started caring and jealous about me!!
Niba kishi nake ba! I just ask and it just slipt my mouth.
He laughed going out as I drop the Alhamdillah in my mouth which made me feel the heavy stone in my body die down.
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Thursdays
2:00PM
Like Nana plan, maimuna came with the henna artist, we sat outside backyard to avoid staining Mami carpet. Where Ada order snack and food from chef2020. What a life without you Ada Amina maman ala'amin dije said.
Acici. Babu komai.
As we laughed.
The henna artist did the traditional kinshi which will stay for 2hours before she draw the black one. Her work is very awesome@henna by Aysha.
After mine,she did for Nana, maimuna, dije, Maryam, haneefa and the rest including hameeda and fauziyya.
We are at the bridge of the stage when ummul said Mami is calling which I know for sure it was ummah that wake up, which I having timing.
Tell her am coming.
Yarinya bazata bari mamanta tayi gayu ba Nana said.
Nana isn't like she used to cry, I just don't know what happen to her but I told Mami.
Whatever dai anty hafsa abari ayi lallen Nan please.
After 30 min with is equivalent to 1hour of my henna.
Ummu came again this time around with her' innalillahi!!! Maimu said. As they all brush into series of laughter.
Ummul please rock her am sure she will keep quiet. Stay here don't go near the main house.
Like a blue, she keep quiet sucking her hand.
Poor ummah, she hungry Maryam, Maryam said!
Gaskiya kin shiga hakkina wlh, advicebly,you remove one hand and feed her haneefa said.
Another loud wild she gave full the place with unexpected person.
"What's this nonsense? Didn't you heard her crying or what? As he collect her from ummul.
Ignore him talking to ummul" please help me remove it!
" Don't let me reach before you, you won't like the other side of me.
"Amman dai kasan akwai dinki a jikina!
He give me the you're not serious face walking aways with his daughter"
By Allah I hate how he angrly react anyhow without consideration, I didn't know the tear I had in me already start Rollin out.
Wlh abinda na guda kenan yanzu gashi yazo, soja Sojan aiki dije said.
What is there to be angry ma oh, Yaya and his seniority.
Karde kiyi gudu dinki ya cire dije said.
Isn't like I run but I make sure I walk after him arriving in same post.
Immediately I feed her, after that I shout ummul name to bring new clothes because she been smiling of henna perfume.
Drop the clothes and go he said"
I look at him calmly as he changed her from clothes to Dipper.
By Allah am try of umma crying like this, I picked his phone and call Dr fareedah.
After the greeting formalities I told her the grant problem.
I don't think she had stomach pain.
Tell him yourself!
She want to talk to you.
I pass the phone and collect her now dress in pink overalls as I continue feeding her.
Sametime he drop the phone, ummul came in with the black henna artist.
Wai gata inji adda.
The kind of look he press to my face made me gulps down the remain shock in my throat.
Kibari Aysha wannan is enough.
He hiss collecting her from my me with I take that to do my henna.
After we are done, I dry my hand and take my bath. I checked on them where I found them sleeping as I pick and tuck the breast in her mouth as she shock beautifully with her eyes closed.
My beautiful umma,am so sorry, it will never happen again. Like a sky she smiles, sametime he wakeup.
"Am going to the mosques, get ready before I came back! I nod.
I informed Mami that we are going to the hospital.
Immediately he came back we left as I don't get to say goodbye bye to maimuna and the rest.
The drive was a very quiet one, only the Quran recitation blowing out the air till we arrive. In time after checking her including her blood sample, she take my breast milk sample as we wait in the reciption. Time to time he rock her till we are call for the results again.
Maman baby, you need to eat more food for hafsa to gain vitamin, because you need more of vitamin B as your breast has much liquid. Baby hafsa has nothing more, it just a mild stomach pain. Lemme check your stiches.
You're heal completely Mami or goggo has try.
I just smile.
Gobe Suna kenan?
Eh! Allah ya kaimu!
You buy this medication from the pharmacy and take note of eating healthier food.
Okay!
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9:30PM
He stop at barakat store. "Am coming" without waiting for my reply.
I signed.
30min he came out with big leather bag taking red bull. "If you like take it or throw it away I don't care" nagaji Maryam, am tired please'.
Yaya it seem like whatever am doing you're not seeing my efforts or my good work. Am also trying, and isn't like I gave birth in thousands time that am neglecting myself like this.
This is my first time, and no one will ever love my daughter the way I do because I gave birth to her and I know what I gone through ban manta ba.
But all you ever see is my uncaring and wrong doing the sleepless nights, painful breastfeeding, stiches problem. Remember I give up my whole body for her to come into this world, I love her more than everything in this world now, she is my strength and the face I see to look up my own.
And isn't like postpartum is easy, Am trying in both you and her.
Kai kullum fada, saboda kagani I can't speak out to you saboda aksanka nake.
The sound of clapping hand made me recall back my words.
"Masha Allah, that's the Maryam I married and always wanted to have, I know that you have so many word to say but your sincerely wouldn't allow you.
Nace ayi hakuri yau, I learn from my mistake and what you don't like,and as from today will be sharing all this together I promise you.
I become short word take, because I didn't expect my word out like this. " Kayi hakuri, I didn't means all my word"
What word and what are you sorry for at the sametime?
Enter inside you have a long day tomorrow. I nod going inside while he pick the leather.
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I had the best naming ceremony ever, the best photo shoot everything went according to plan as I retired for today.
Tomorrow morning Yaya resume back to work as continues with me staying in Mami house till forty....
